This is really annoying me. I want to sort it out. I want to start to heal so that I can continue and grow without the weight, the self created questions that copulate with my paranoia to result in small, biting answers, suppositions, theories. Last night and this morning I am obsessed with the question ‘is she sleeping with her?’ It’s come to the ( Read more... )

I can't do this anymore. I am taking down the pictures because I am not strong enough to constantly go back to square one. Every time I speak to her I come back to square one of illusion and emotion and she's all I can think about for hours on end. I've never had to properly survive on my own before, but it's time ( Read more... )

This is really annoying me. I want to sort it out. I want to start to heal so that I can continue and grow without the weight, the self created questions that copulate with my paranoia to result in small, biting answers, suppositions, theories. Last night and this morning I am obsessed with the question ‘is she sleeping with her?’ It’s come to the ( Read more... )

I spent half the day sleeping and the other half drinking cuppa soup, feeling poor, and watching DVDs. Now I’m on campus waiting to snottily run my speech for Welfare officer and hope that like last year, there won’t be any competition for any of the positions. It was ridiculous ( Read more... )

Alright, so I managed to get ill. I thought I had completely avoided it but was wrong ( Read more... )

Wow ( Read more... )

Ow ow OW hangover! I have just eaten quite an atrociously made ham/cheese/mayonainse sandwich made in a slightly dodgy baguette that we got free from the shop yesterday between bars. I had a good time, although I resent martin’s new fuck for welting me on the arm with a fucking elastic band- now I have two sets of marks to gloss over to people at ( Read more... )

I have made some decisions in regards to this term. There’s a lot of things I want to change about the way that I generally run my life but in all honesty I’m not sure whether to make these changes or not. I would like to be more independent and not rely on other people’s company, but instead be more comfortable in my own- but I love to talk to ( Read more... )

This morning I seem to have quickly developed wild and delirious ambitions. I awoke sticky and achy but with vivid consecutive dreams, murder and running, apocalypse and entrapment. Having cocooned myself in this house for a little loo long this week I am really missing work and feeling like I’m actually doing something with my restless energy ( Read more... )

The New Dentist is way way better than Old Dentist- I’ve been a dental hobo for the last three years, and I trust noone since that evil sadist woman dug about in my root canal without an anaesthetic. Somehow I have a little faith in this slightly camp Serbian man, with his butch secretary and tiny Indian nurse who clops around in mules and cropped ( Read more... )