yea soooo Christmas is over and it never even felt like Christmas no sparkle no happy warm evergreen smelling or excited feeling in my stomach... why? i don't even know. i mean the most important thing is that everyone is happy and healthy ( Read more... )

i think that i just need a hug and a huge glass of cranberry juice NOT from concentrate...

when you change relationships is it just picking and choosing what you want and dont want? or is it about the person. the reason why you first started going out with them...do they not matter anymore? does anything matter anymore. what is sapose to matter. what should matter? i get lost in these questions...

it really sucks right now....like im so pissed off. an i even have a right to be mad. but i feel ... no i know he isnt even paying attention to the fact that i havent seen him at all.... fucking all day. and he's been with his friend and STILL fucking with his friend. then his friend i like you hate me. but i dont i hate that he's been with him, ( Read more... )

Yea so its like 7:35 and I had class from 9-12 and 3-6 and im still here... yea i know. well im starving because all i had to eat today was rez! and chris wants to go see a movie which is wicked sweet, but i dunno if we are gonna make it ( Read more... )

ugh where do i start? i dunno what to do i have been stuck in my fucking room with a psycho. it sucks and im so sick of it. i really am. like she unplugs my fridge who does that ( Read more... )

ok i absolutely cant sleep and im in chris's room. i've basically been having the worst day. me and chris arent fighting but we have like an on going argument and it never stops no matter what. i dont know how to end it. its not that i dont want to loose its just that i absolutely hate smoking. why does he feel the absolute need to smoke. he quit ( Read more... )

ugh today is such a bad day....i've been praying for chris to be strong and make it throught football and what happens on the 3rd day? he breaks his collar bone.....are you fucking kidding me. chris has been through so much shit and now this. another broken bone to his list. its such bullshit. how can here be a god if he cant even give mercy to ( Read more... )

its.my.birthday.tomaro......yay...go.me......:)

i do. i miss just about everyone and i havent seen people too much either cause the first part of the summer i was sick etc. and i JUST  got back from Italy and that took up ALL july i didnt even get to see chris that much. at LEAST i get to see him today till sunday cause his brothers gradution party is on saturday. AND he is taking me to nh to ( Read more... )