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i need to drink more water and sleep less.
 i need to find my phone and brush my hair.
  i need to do my taxes and feed my dogs.

tomorrow i will make a cake. 
coated with fondant.
Because Monday is my sister's birthday. 17 and all grown up?
more like 17. just 17. nothing special at all.

 so this is boredom ( Read more... )

I spent the last 10 minutes typing an entry. And I deleted it.
Because maybe learning the easy way is impossible and I can't save her from the mistake I made.
So why bother lecturing or advising or caring in general.  She will just proceed down a dangerous road.
A road that will leave her broken.
Because when you fall for him, you fall hard and you ( Read more... )

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I call this home.
This knowledge that it's all good, and it really is.

I woke up knowing that I'm back to where I started. 
And while for most, thats nothing to be proud of.
For me, it's everything.

I'm over it, all of it, all of him, all of them.  
Like it never happened, though i have the scars to prove it did. 
I won't throw it all away, but it won't ( Read more... )

Every time i watch JT die on Degrassi, I still find myself hoping that he'll make it.
It's just a show. But sometimes I think it's my life.

you know you feel it too.

anemia.
its a common blood disorder, as far as blood disorders go.
but it still sucks.
i have been sleeping so much, and passing out.
i am always dizzy and freezing cold.

lets just hope Hema-Plex works.  i want to feel better.

i kinda just want everyone i know to die, ya know?
im tired. of people. and places. and things.

depressed/vulnerable/friendly/assertive/liberal/intellectual/sympathetic/cooperative
and not cautious at all.