shit fuck fuck shit...

down 10lb this week, then I binged tonight. Half a chicken sandwich and yam fries. fuck fuck fuck.

Liquid fast tomorrow.

/friggin cow.

I lost 9lb this week... It feels like a welcome home. It's been so long since I've been so dedicated, and... man it feels good. Recovery is hard. Recovery, feels.. not like recovery, but... I dunno. I don't feel like I was ever "treated" for my feelings/thoughts/head. I feel like I was told to eat... and eat and eat.

9lb in week one. I can do this ( Read more... )

I'm not sure why... But I loveee this girl.. Everything about her.


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Down again, thank god. Down 5.2lb since Friday ( Read more... )

 Ps- Can I have these thighs please?


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 I am in love with these boots...


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 Although iv'e wrote for years in diaries and such.. this is where everything is.

It's impressive that I can always come back to this.

9 crackers, 1 diet pop. 1 peice of cheese cut into about 20 pieces. 1 piece of sausage cut into the same.

Going to go Zumba for an hour.

xx

-H

 I was eleven.

The book was blue. And the girl neither thin nor fat, stood there. Grinning. And it began.

Kristina told me it was a good book (for the first time, I wonder - did she ever feel bad for recommending it to me?). I read it, quickly. I absorbed it. I read it multiple times. Even if it killed her - she was going to be thin. She was going ( Read more... )

Theres this strange belief.. Belief that.. Under all our layers - be it fat, muscle, or the body as a whole - theres a different- perfect, body. In each one of us. And if we starve enough, run far enough, or.. throw up enough, we'll discover her. it's like, we'll wake up one day and we will.. be looking at her - our thin, beautiful self in the ( Read more... )

Yesss...

Got, nothing tastes as good as thin feels.

Been under 500 calories everyday, and been working out for a few hours everyday..

:o)

Thats all I have to say, haha. I feel awesome.


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