Why do you want to be thin, deary?
Seriously. I'm wondering, why do you want to be thin- the thinnest of the thin?

I want to be envied, and be the girl everyone looks at and says "God I want her thighs" and "God, I wanna look like her."

I want to almost have being thin behind me, and give a reason for being such a bitch. Ever notice gorgeous people ( Read more... )

I live with someone who repluses me ( Read more... )

I weighed myself.
I'm doing okay. Almost down 20 lb for.. 1 1/2 months?
Ugh. I could do better.
I will.

PS- math test in a half hour. I'm leaving now. But gahh.. wish me luck.
Stupid math.

Today, I ate a few crackers = 90cals. And a handful of grapes again. About 62 calories. And water. 152 calories. ... It feels untidy though. I didn't notice if i'm down today. But, thats okay. I didn't eat enough to gain.  I hope. Gah, I hope.

Anddd, thinspo for today:


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Today.
I had a handful of grapes.
A diet pop.
A few waters.
And that was it.

Fuck yes.

Tomorrow, I have a date with Bobby.
I'm really scared. He wants to take me out to eat.
.. Ugh. Maybe I can tell him it's better if we pick up a sub or something and take it back to his house.
Yes. Yes, thats better.
And then.. I can either puke it up, or, avoid eating.

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I'm ridiculous.
I want to be loved so much, and yet I hide behind everything, because I know I don't deserve it.
Besides, i'm not pretty enough.

@%^&*@#*&# @#%^&@*#&^!

Jesus christ.

Anyone have any idea's on how to rip out your heart?
Or at least not feel affection?
Because, I really have to stop caring, now.

Why can't we all be gorgeous like ms. ( Read more... )

.. ugh.
Sometimes I wish I was good enough for someone.

And then, at other times..
I remember, I don't want to bring anyone else down.

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