Nobody bothers to help me anymore. It's been a week since I've adopted this useless, apathetic attitude towards everyone and everything, and my "friends" respond as they would if I was just acting normally. Nobody notices how tormented I feel about having absolutely nothing going on in my life. I have no one to relate to; No one to share something ( Read more... )

Where are the musical opportunities in Rhode Island? I'll tell you that they don't exist. So, I've been having these ridiculous thoughts of moving to California to make this sort of industrial/jazz-type band with my friend Aaron who I've known for over four years. I know a lot of people wouldn't ever agree with that sort of decision as ridiculous ( Read more... )

Sometimes I want people to read my thoughts and ideas and be captivated by them. Maybe find a relevance in what I am thinking or a truth, or an underlying philosophy. You could be asking yourself 'what thoughts'? Well, don't bother asking because I've forgotten them by now. In the last few days, I think I may have discovered transcendentalism. By ( Read more... )

We're stuck, yet bent
Set shame to sin,
But what's "1 4 3" to love
Labeled just friends?

Oh shit. Totally Cute material right there ...

her fingers grow cold ( Read more... )

I have spent too long thinking optimistically about Kelsey and I, and all of a sudden she breaks up with her boyfriend and tells me, "I love you like my brother". I thought that she wanted me around all the time because she liked me, but I guess what I really became was her best friend. Is it fucked up to say that it's not fair? This isn't fair.

I finally grew some balls and quit pretty plays discord today. It was funny because I was over at jump jump, juliet! practice and we recorded me quitting on the phone with scott's voicemail. And bob called all pissed off. I love being an asshole, haha. The ackbars practice went by well also because we learned a chiodos song and kelsey really loves ( Read more... )

Okay. So as part of a promotional plan for my new band (not pretty plays discord which clearly sucks balls as scott, bob, and mike never fucking get better at their instruments) I've decided to post some lyrics for the 0 people that happen to read my live journal. I'm so excited!

I've Spent the Last Four Years Screaming ...

Opening ChorusHer body ( Read more... )

Turned down again. Fuck this shit. Fuck girls and to anyone else who treats me like shit; fuck you too. Faggots.

So, band practice with kels was pretty fun as was band practice with pretty plays discord. We took a bunch of silly photographs for ourspace and have a bunch of new ideas for the music. Sadly, the rest of my life isn't as productive ( Read more... )