Man i freaked out Yesterday. Adam took me to the "Y" to see how i did with the quarter mile swim for my lifeguarding test... i am terrible. maybe its because im a runner and think i can do anything, and just got discouraged... but let me tell you, i suck =( I did like two of my 434324321412 laps and i felt like i was going to drown. Guess it's not ( Read more... )

weird ass things are goingon in my life. BAH im graduating. its getting to me. i have senioritis. i dont want people to leave this summer. its going to come so fast. july. people are leaving in july. and imleaving not long after. I cantwait to getout of here and start my new life but i so scared we're not going to make these next few months count. ( Read more... )

So i havn't updated in a while.. thought i'd get on that. I got accept to Wagner, which is on Staten Island in New York. But in all honesty I don't think I'm going to go there. I don't have a reason to stay in New England, I don't have a reason to hold onto the things I have here, and I don't feel that I would be a better person as a result of NY. ( Read more... )

I felt myself slipping, it could have been good. but it could have been very, very bad. In my experience 5 months from leaving, it would have been a repeat of my hearts destruction one year ago. I have one lost whirl wind summer romance, i dont need another. so ending it now was better than waiting for it to be crushing later. and im sure the ( Read more... )

oh fuck. I think I fell in love with a song. Not a person. No Loving people. omg, ive never fought so hard to not care. Im clinging tho, I won't fall ( Read more... )

This weekend's been straaange. But pretyt much Happy just the same :o).

Friday night was the st. Patty's Day party. It was so weird being around kids i've barely spoken too. But after a bonfire, sum vodka, and a couple of hours we were all chatting it up. We deffinitly fit like 9 people, 4 of which were football players, into a 6 person hottub.. it ( Read more... )

I hung out with Tom tonight. His dad had surgery today and i helped him pick out a card and sum cookies for him, because anything but cookies was too girly lol. the jokes were the same, his attitude was the same, but im so different now. It's amusing how alike i am, and how different i am. I have the same personality, but i protect myself so much ( Read more... )

Wow... Today was both amazing and strange. I stayed in school all day today, didnt leave last block (For the first time in my Senior Year... No, Im not kidding) it was very odd. Then the One Act Play Festival began. This is an event where 8 different schools come to PRHS through friday and saturday and we all put on a one act play, there are all ( Read more... )

where did love go? destiny? things happening for a reason? karma? miracles? where the hell is all of the unexplainable magic ( Read more... )

I have Ten Thousand things to say. And One Million things holding my tongue.

Words:  When i get an idea, a theory, an eppifany of any kind I automatically feel it in me to write it down. I sit there rolling the words over in my mind until they play just right, everything must fit and make perfect harmonious sense. like a song i have to finish, or ( Read more... )