So it's official. It's over. After everything, we're done. slightly mutual buuuut more like needed to be done. It's hard when you love someone when they are just not sure what kind of feelings to send back to you... She's says she'll come back....but im not so sure. For now i am alone...and i dont really know what to think of all this. I've felt ( Read more... )

I don't know what I want. Now i'm the one who's confused.
Things have been dramatically up and down in the past month, Now I get this strange feeling in my stomach now and then whenever Savannah calls or is brougth up or when things happen to be wierd when we're together.
The past couple of days have been good. Its felt like the beginning again. I'm ( Read more... )

I'm starting to believe that it's time for me to enjoy the single life   :)

I'm 20 years old. I should be out with my friends having a good time and trying not to worry about a damn thing. I get way to caught up into relationships. I need to chill. I think I am now just as confused as her because of everything that's happened in the past 2 and a half weeks. "You're gonna be the one who's not gonna wanna get back together" ( Read more... )

      So we've decided to take a break for like a week n a half - 2 weeks til' the Dashboard show at Six Flags. From there will see what happens....
Yes i know how incredibly emo that just sounded, but please have some mercy on me. To put it into words...This Sucks. There isn't one thing that can put a smile on my face right now. I left her house ( Read more... )

What do you do if you think your girlfriend has cheated on you? Do you confront her? I mean if you have no real evidence but just...that feeling....do you risk everything? There have been tell tale signs, and as far as REAL evidence goes there have been some things that i shouldnt have seen...

The problem is I dont even know what I would do if its ( Read more... )

It feels like i'm a piece of paper. It feels as though she's come over and picked me up, grabbed me by the top and placed her hands in all the correct places. Now it seems that she's tearing me in half little by little....just to toss away into the trash....

Will someone please hand me some god damn tape for crying out loud?

So basically i finally start fulltime airforce cop on the base june 1st and make a pretty decent pay check, i'm putting my bronco on the road this week, and financially things will be safe and sound. Although this last month has been pretty strenuous. Between some pretty rough spots with the girlfriend and other little things here and there I find ( Read more... )

Even in the midst of things going wrong, everything in life can slowly start to piece itself together. I am waiting on the Air Force to give me my full-time orders to work at Westover in Chicopee, which is about twenty minutes from me n Keith's apartment. This should happen between now and abut three weeks from now. Which actually works out because ( Read more... )

i got my transfer to Westover. :)

i dont have to deploy now. righteous.