shit's hard.

h a r d does not actually even begin to describe where things are. but: i'll make it. i always will. i always do. i have my love..and the majority of my sanity.

finally spoke to a counselor: only one more semester after this one ( Read more... )

yous:

one-track mind.
unable to balance.
showing a lack of care.
elementary in your execution.

mes:

wants Everything.
too many distractions.
slightly lazy about it.
seem to meet people more than
half way.

I'm not complaining so much as I'm saying: "If I were like you would you be my friend?"

it makes me sick to my stomach
when you do that and then expect

love.

not tonight dear.

not tonight

and it was right then that he realized.

new york was where he left his heart.

so he decided to go back for it.

once to pick up a part of it over spring break

and again

in the fall

at the WEDDING!!

oh i cannot wait for the big apple once more.

mmmmhmmmmm

even though I'm trying to not be like this..

most would think it was a little weird.

"drinking tea
under your covers
while
kissing me,
kissing me."

i'm in bed with tea..and my love wont be home until tonight.
not sure if i can wait that long for snuggles

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oh love.
so powerful & overwhelming.
wrap me up in your spider web.

impossibility after impossibility.

i hope this is not become
ing

a habit.

i am in love but i want him too.

and he's so cute...and interested.

life is amazing.
.
.
.
.
oh men, why? Y why!? why
y
y
y
y
y
y
y
y
why?

i got a new toothbrush and it's amazing.
thank you target.

i kinda hate how messy 17year olds can be.
sierra mist with cranberry is what it does.

i want to take pictures
i think i just might.

if you wanna complain...

i've got far too many issues to stress over
at this moment in time.

breathe.

fuck.

why?

i'm not sure how much longer i'll be able to maintain this
facade. it's cracking and exposing the true depths of things.

smile.

play along.

continue&repeat