the month of july was a roller coaster ride for me. everytime every thing went up, it all of a sudden came back to with lots of pressure. today is august 1st. the beginning of a new month. but will it be a different chapter for me? i don't know. i guess i'm going to be anticipated till the last day of the month. well to sum up the month of july. I' ( Read more... )

RydeBloodyRyde (1:27:46 AM): if only i had known u were a whore ( Read more... )

if i could only say what i really felt, would i have any acquiatances ( Read more... )

today was probably one of the most funnest day in a long time. Thanks Zac -jen

world, i'm better now. i promise.. never again will the bottle entice me to drink..never again

i'm not your girlfriend anymore. i don't take shit from you anymore. get the heck over it! -jen

it's funny how one person can go from giddy to depressed. i hate it. i hate it with a passion. this may be the only time i can use the word hate and mean it. i'm not okay and i'm just not. i don't care how many times you can say "how are you." there's no way that i will ever tell you the truth. I'm so hurt. so broken. I feel used and abused. I ( Read more... )

i know i'm not supposed to but i do it anyways i know i'm not supposed to but i do it anyways but it always does it's like i'm setting myself up for a crash people will never meet my expectations and i know it..i still seem to get my hopes up..little girls get their hopes up when they know after every doctors visits they'll get a lollipop and then ( Read more... )

i did it again. i brought all my hopes up and then fell for a shadow. a shadow. what am i doing to myself? why do i always let this happen? i keep trying to change who i am for my own good and it seems that it always goes back to the same shattered road. everytime i shed a tear pieces of my heart come out in the droplets. there's not even a heart ( Read more... )

today i finally started to think about everything. I just stepped back for a while and tried to put all the pieces of my life together. I realized that I'm not who i once was. I'm not that little girl anymore. I'm now a woman walking alone in the world without ma and pa by my side anymore. It brings a tear to my eye but I need to find myself. Maybe ( Read more... )