Enter me, all of a sudden I am on a ferryboat. There are no cars on this ferryboat just people walking around on the deck where cars usually should be. I turn and walk a little, I am at the bow of the ship near a stairwell, but I don't see the water or the sky. I look up and and there is Julie, in uniform, blue with an apron, beautiful as I have ( Read more... )

What is going on, lol goddamn. Happy new years.

Oh so much pain, so much pain and so little time, so long of a time with so little pain. A dream of happiness from 6-7 pm. So I can remember my dreams now. I can remember happiness.

You would try to prevent something bad from happening to you if it was within your power wouldn't you? It seems like whenever I try to prevent something, it happens anyway. That sucks. I wonder if I try to prevent my own death, it will happen sooner, I could try that. Suicide by accident, what a concept ( Read more... )

There are people that make me happy, some people who confuse me, who anger me. There are some who I love, some who I hate, some who hate me and some who say they love me. But what good is love really, given that it does not last, and it is never quite complete. A tower destined to fall before it has reached the sky. Why build then? Maybe its good ( Read more... )

Ev'ry day I'm hustlin. Im a balluh.

Thats IT. I have had it with these motherfucking snakes on this motherfucking plane.

Things are starting to unravel sooner than I expected. The forcast is still grim, while the outlook; mildly pessimistic. I can almost feel myself burning in the crash already. My god its going to be horrible. Im definitely not going to be able to handle this, not again, not now, not forever (whatever length of time that is ( Read more... )

A list of things that grieve me lately:

• I cant drive (still, its been 2 years)
  
• I am failing at school (nothing new)
  
• I am in love again (NOT a good thing, give it a few more months)
  
• Every one of my friends has a significant other (all the bois from the krew)
  
• I have been skipping
  
• I am fat
  
• I am unattractive (as stated above)
  
• I will not gradute high ( Read more... )

We have all heard "if you hold your face like that too long, itll get stuck" but how about this "If you go to sleep hating your life/self, youll never wake up ( Read more... )