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Change my mind...
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For those who care...
I haven't written in along time so I thought an update was due. I some how managed to get my bachelors degree in Elementary Education.I was able to be a teacher for awhile before my health declined. I have a brain tumor and multiple lesions in different areas of my brain. I have no answers as to why. I have 3 young children now all rowdy boys . Mat ( Read more... ) -
I hope this stays around awhile...
I am feeling nostalgic tonight and tried to look through some things but some are gone I had a Xanga account before this and Xanga has been gone for some time. So I am not sure I can get back my 13 year old self but this has my 15 year old self and 12 years is still a lot of time ( Read more... ) -
Adventures?
I am going into my 4th week in Student Teaching and feeling so overwhelmed, stressed, emotional, and exhaustion. My family is falling apart not just my close family cats and Mat most of my family. My aunt commited suicide in July. Several of my loved ones are sick with chronic illness and I myself am suffering from my autoimmune disease, ( Read more... ) -
a ghost
I feel like a ghost here. I think it's more for my sanity that I keep coming back and leaving little glimpses of the person I am at one point in time. Maybe it's just a reference for myself in-case I am lost. My RA is out of control, I am miserable. There was a point between February through last month where I felt just fine. I was an opioid ( Read more... ) -
An update
I thought I would do an update since It was February since I last wrote. I found happiness, it truly exist to some degree enough for me to live on a daily basis. I went through a "binge" of happiness towards the end of February that has extended out to the past few months. I am a little bit sadder lately then I have been, but I am optimistic and ( Read more... ) -
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I hate you and you will never realize the depth of that. I want to be happy, but I don't think I ever will be. I never have been truly happy. I am physically falling apart and mentally. I can see what the doctor meant when she told me 5 years. I don't know why I dwell on that. It will be 4 years in July and I can feel the difference. I know the ( Read more... ) -
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My R.A is bad today and I am feeling depressed and lonely. I have seen many changes in my hands and legs and body in general as the R.A has gotten worse. It's in my hips now. I had an incident in July that required mat cutting up my food. This has happened a few times since. I also was wheeled out and given massive steriods for a huge flare at the ( Read more... ) -
going on 3 weeks...
I am experiencing a horrible R.A flare up that won't go away no matter how many steroids I take for it. This is the worst my R.A has ever been. I had a Steroid Shot to the hip last week and not relief I am now on a steroid burst and no relief. I am supposed to start infusion drugs but having major issues with the insurance company covering it so I ( Read more... ) -
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I have been dealing with a lot lately. I know there are a lot of positive things in my life but I am also battle a lot of uncommon things. My disease is getting worse, my wrist joints are bulging out. When I walk my knees pop in and out of place. If I postion my foot a certain way my toes pop out of place and tear up my ligaments and tendons and ( Read more... )