I can't believe the day I get married will make 4 years that I have been with Mat or that we have been friends for 6 years. I can't believe his friend Devon had a kid a few weeks ago or that My best friend who I have known for 7 years will be having her first baby in October. She actually sent me a recording of the heart beat through a text message ( Read more... )

Brooke had her baby today I don't know how big or tall she is but she named her Emerson Leigh. I feel sad that I can't visit because I am trapped in Muncie. I will see her this weekend most likely. I have already seen a few pictures they took of her and she looks like devon. I am in a sad mood today for some reason. Yesterday I felt super ( Read more... )

I feel like my memory has gotten worse over the years or possible I have something wrong with me but I assume with the spinal tap and mri they would have seen it but I am still waiting for results. The few days following the tap where hell. I had the worse head ache ever, which I was told because even though I could tell my back wasn't leaking ( Read more... )

My spinal tap was yesterday and it wasn't as bad as I was thinking it would be. I had one when I was 10 so I had an idea of what it would be like. The neurologist didn't even do it a resident did but she was super nice and got it done the first time so I feel like she will be a good neurologist someday when she finishes medical school. When I was ( Read more... )

This has certainly been the week from hell. I should probably say the past few weeks. Today my mother said she would always remember because of the chaos. I woke up at 5:30 to leave to go with my parents for my mothers partial hysterectomy. I ended up staying with them until 4. Between that time several things happened. Before I left my grandmother ( Read more... )

I can't believe I have been using this for the past six years but can only remember the past three. I hate how awful the human memory is but I suppose if it was any other way more people would kill themselves. I just wish I could remember the good things in more detail and better. I guess Its more or less like a book its all there but I only can ( Read more... )

My mind wanders to much and my memory seems as if its getting worse. I remember in elementary school having to read about the brain and I remember the reading saying after the age of 20 your brain cells start dying or something along that nature. It always freaked me out and now that I am 21 I think about it more. I feel like I forget a lot. My ( Read more... )

I will remember this year so far as the year of me feeling old. Two of my close friends pregnant and due this year one in March one in October. I am getting married for real in June all the big things are paid for it will be a rustic woodland theme in the forest :) I ready to be done with college but I am only half way done and loathe it. I feel a ( Read more... )

I am so frustrated and stressed out 2009 was bad and good. December 08 /January 2009 I quit take anti-depressants which was a struggle because prior to I was on them since I was eleven years old and the first two times I tried to get off them I experienced the worst withdrawal ever. I started going to Ball State this year so January--February-- ( Read more... )

I am sick of being sick. I never imagined that I would be on chemo or having to take biological injections at the age of 21. It's so frustrating haveing a chronic illness an auto-immune disease. I am afraid to take all of this stuff it is supposed to help but at the same time I am terrifed. I feel like I am slowly killing myself becuase of the ( Read more... )