amazing.

What do I do wrong?

The boy is so amazed and happy with me then BAM it all turns around. He gets distant and little by little it all just goes away. I feel ugly, annoying, and not worth his time. I hate this, I would love to just fall asleep and not wake up...because I can't do this again or anymore.

I am too nice to be told that I am a cunt.

I am too giving to be told I never cared.

I am too tired to keep pulling myself back up for air.

I am too tired to be myself.

My heart and head are in limbo ( Read more... )

I spent tonight watching girly movies to make myself cry ( Read more... )

I need the internet badly, I hate going to the library...although it is air conditioned which is great seeing how deathly hot out it is ( Read more... )

Work: Pacific Sunwear and Dominos

Location: New Bedford, MA

School: BCC for Nursing

Roommates: Kyle and Jesse

and I love life...

I think I am coming back to this thing...

Miss me?

So,

I realized I love New Bedford kids way too much.

Its going to be real hard to leave in June...realllllll hard.

Holy shit

I never use this thing, maybe I should though.

I need to get a version of Photoshop, anyone want to hook me up?