So I havent updated this thing in a lil while...what to say...there is ntohing going on really...the most absolute form of nothing. I was really enjoying the single life until bobby and ashley started goin out, and everytime i see them together, i miss that feeling, i havent felt that in so long, makes me sad to see them like that. No offense ( Read more... )

So i figured it was time for an update...been an interesting weekend.  Ashley is pissed off, Megan is talking to me again.  I see that the switch happened, but I dont know why, but I wanted them both to be talking to me.  I miss those days...LOL.  Well whatever, Im kinda getting a handle on the me and Megan thing...its gonna be cool.  All I need ( Read more... )

So just when i think i know whats going on and what im gonna do, my phone rings at 830 am...well, i really enjoyed the call though. and as for what was said and what went on, i just hope we get to talk more, kinda patch things up, lemme know if thats what u want meg...and ashley, well, what to say about ashley, except shes pissed at me cuz i cant ( Read more... )

Ive lost trust in the one person who has been truthfully helpful through all of this. Ashley, u shoulda told me megan was in the room, that stuff was all in confidence, and ive never broken yours. I cant believe this. I said some things that were absolutely subject to change, and now i dont know if they can ever be the way they were before just ( Read more... )

So, I think Ive reached my wits end on this one. So sick so sick of being tired and oh so tired of being sick. I dont know what to say or do anymore, just that i know what i want, and i dont know what else. i cant help being afraid of certain things, ive come to realize that, and it seems that the way im going and the amount of fighting i have ( Read more... )

So, its 240 in the morning, i have to wake up in like 2 hours. I dont know, I was having an amazing conversation, awesome stuff, like 3 hours worth...god i love meeting new people. anyways, i felt tired, so i said i needed to go to bed, i laid down, instantly not tired. 3 hours later i decided to update. so here i am, and what to say...im ( Read more... )

Weel, Ive had an interesting second half of my week. If you know what Im talking about, great, if not, ask, I dont really wanna air dirty laundry on live journal. But for once, Ive got a positive outlook. "The greatest trade between 2 human beings is one's total forgiveness for one's total remorse."

Well, Im finally updating this thing after Ive sobered up. Megan is pissed, and there are some things that came out that I wish I would have known. I am more sorry about that than anything. Things got out of control on me this weekend, and now I have to pay the price. I dont want there to be a price to pay, but I think that if she would have ( Read more... )

So here I am drunk again, this night was bitter sweet, U of I lost, but whatever, still good times. We went to the riot on the quad and invited some girls back to the apartment. I still have to apologize to everyone I apologizerd to earlier, shit happens, but whatever, if u have any questions, ask...219-308-5020. Oh well, everyone who was pissed ( Read more... )

At this point, it seems the whole world is pissed at me...oh well. Im sorry to Sarah and Meg, who seem to hae gotten the worst out of my weekend debauchery. But shit happens when u party naked. Oh well, Im still in champaign, couldnt go home after saturday night knowing that I would be missing the greatest party ever. Oh, and Ashley, if ure ( Read more... )