these thoughts of fear and anguish.. consuming my inards like a breath of fire. i wanted to be so close , to be so loved, but she feared me, a call made explaing the tru feelings felt for another , the return call with only remorse for heartbreaking intentions... y must i be the way i am , y cant i just leave those alone who wish to be left alone. ( Read more... )

why is love so hard to come by? alone for soo long with no one to care for me and love me. i feel as though this lonleyness is engulfing my inards, turning my soul into a forever empty abyss. ignored and rejected by those that i love. restricted from being myself in fear that i will only be shunned out and away from the world. but wat does it ( Read more... )

later today my best friend the one that ive know since 5th grade, gabe will be leaving for north carolina. u wanna talk bout fukin sad! holy shit i im goin to the airport tommarow and i think im gunna end up crackin a tear watchin him get on the plane..... no one can ever replace this dude. he is the ultimate bro . there was never a time when ( Read more... )

im pretty lonely..... :( nobody loves me.... ::cries::

the sun rises and another sleepless night passes thinking of you and the love that burdons me it has been soo long since i last felt your touch too long since i last hear the beauty of your voiceeven so my heart beats on just the membrance of such guiding my life in hope with it that i might hold you close to me and yet again be one but these eyes ( Read more... )

so yea i went to the pool hall tonight to have a good time and celebrate my moving out.....and when i go out to my car to drop my buddy ricky off the doors wide open and all my shit is gone....... and then this big ass group of FUKING asians is standing all of 20 ft away and we ask them if theyve seen anything and they say no.....which is total ( Read more... )

sittin in this state of depression..lonely and sad..seeing u tonight..without me and lookin soo glad..whispering to the girls..im sure about me..and the occasional look.. what u think i dont see..u wouldnt look at me..not for one second..no glance no hi..just ignorance recounded ( Read more... )

i have 3 weeks to find an apartment and move in b4 my mom moves to tucson....fuk i gotta bust my ass. i also have toi find a new job that pays a lot more!! that way i can be sure that i wont be struggling every month to pay my bills. life is coming on way too fast ..... i knew it was coming but BAM i didnt realize how close it really is! i gotta ( Read more... )

lol so yea i get bak from tucson for the last 5 days and i ditch the first day that im supposed to go to school...lol. owell. anywayz im hella bored waiting to go hang with tonianne ...wish i had some money so we could go shoot pool or something. but hey its cool its been a long time since ive seen her so it'll be nice just to talk hang out and ( Read more... )

this letter i write to all those that break hearts ( Read more... )