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A Treatise on Nothing
2 weeks ago I went to my pyscatrist and there was an old woman who came in after me. She kept moaning, and every few minutes would slap her face and yell/moan "Water!" This went on for 15 minutes. I wanted her to die. Not becuase she was sitting next to me and making me exetremely nervous, but maybe she would find the water she wanted if she ( Read more... ) -
Flux
I'm in too much of a state of flux. My mood has been changing all day to day, and it's very draining. It's odd, I may feel happy for a few minutes and then later on completely forget what it felt like. I'm obviously feeling depressed as I always do. I want to go lay down, but the idea of getting up and walking the 30 feet seems too much of a ( Read more... ) -
I've Decided
I've decided that one of the most depressing noises to hear is laughter in the distance. -
When I Die
I think, when it comes my time to die, I'll appreciate it because it will be the one thing I can never predict. -
Red Balloons Make Me Sad
Yesterday at 4 in the morning I was awake and feeling sad, so I decided to make a picture. Dr.Page says when I get creative it's therapeutic for me. I think he may be right, but it's hard for me to make things when I feel very depressed, but I managed to muse my self by thinking of things that make me sad. I came up with this.
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Time seems to drag on, nowadays. I don't know why. I don't think it's it the 10mg of Fluoxetine in my system that's causing it. I would think if it's affecting my ability to sleep it would help banish my woes. I haven't showered in 3 days. Not because I don't want to but becuase I just sleep all the time. I sleep and sleep and then realize I ( Read more... ) -
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I'm home, and I'm very deeply depressed. I was feeling fine earlier today, but then when I got on the train to go home, my mood completely changed. It scares me. How fast it can change, I don't feel like I'm in control anymore. My mother picked me up from the train station and asked me, "You seemed like you where in a good mood last night, were ( Read more... )
