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[emptyyourself]

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[impure_tale]

You think you have more than anyone else on this ship. Would you like to conduct a study and find out?

[emptyyourself]

No, I wouldn't. Thank you for offering. I just don't think it's necessary.

You could give me a run for my money, though.

If I wasn't so secure in both my marriage and my sexuality, I would want to have sex with you.

[impure_tale]

Actually until recently I haven't had many visitors to my bed. None that have counted since Miss Rose departed.

Your confession does not surprise me, but then I'm of the general opinion that no matter how old or ugly I am, I've still the wit and fortitude to confuse and make curious the most self-assured of people. If you and your lovely wife are ever feeling especially adventurous, I've good wine and an enormous bed.

I highly recommend me. I'm a vintage that never goes bad.

[emptyyourself]

In the highly unlikely event that I divorce and suddenly decide I have a taste for men, I'll keep that in mind.

I will consider the other offer for ten seconds, and then dismiss it because not only am I decidedly not interested in a menage a trois with anyone...I think Martha would probably be angry if I agreed to that without consulting with her first.

[tadwizard]

You're wrong. You think you don't deserve Martha, but you do, because you're a genius, and clever, and you do more to help people than people realize because you do it with a grumpy attitude but that doesn't make the good things you do any less good. Martha's also a genius and clever and she also does more than people realize, so you're perfect for each other.

[emptyyourself]

Sometimes I think you're an idiot. However, I like you and occasionally you say and do things which make me respect you.

You baffle me.

But I really am very appreciative of everything you just said.

[tadwizard]

I'm glad. Not about the thinking I'm an idiot, because I kind of wish you didn't, but that I sometimes do things that make you respect me and that you appreciate what I said, although I'd rather you said you believed what I said.

[emptyyourself]

I don't think I will ever believe that I deserve her. It isn't you - it simply seems unfathomable.

And it's better for her if I keep believing I'm undeserving. I'll always treat her like a goddess.

Did I tell you I spoke with your inmate?

[thegooddrjones]

I'm smug about us having more sex than anyone else on the ship too. Especially because it's fantastic sex

[emptyyourself]

The sex is really very good, which confuses me, as I've never been particularly stellar at it before. It's probably because I wasn't as interested in other women as I am in you. Also, I was thinking about Lily during those encounters, whereas I don't think about her at all when I'm with you.

I like not thinking about her. I also like being with you. I'm very happy when you spend time with me.

Part of the reason I tried to convince you to quit working in the infirmary was because I wanted you to be with me more, but I know it's selfish and feel very guilty about it.

I really do think you are being treated poorly, however, and people should defend you. And you should not have to be fighting this fight - but I think you're fighting it well. It has made me admire you and respect you in ways I didn't before.

[thegooddrjones]

I know that was part of the reason, but I would never quit to simply spend time with you. I like being a doctor too much for that. Most of the time anyway.

I'm glad you think so, but I'm tired of fighting. It makes me feel like it's not worth it and I spend all of my time fighting and not enough of it doing doctor things.

I'm happiest when I'm spending time with you studying healer things. But I've been removing dust covers of books so people don't know what I'm reading.

[emptyyourself]

I want you to be a witch badly. I don't want to tell you because you'll probably think it has something to do with my distaste for muggles, and that I somehow find you lacking.

It's simply because I think it would be easier for us, and you would enjoy it, and it makes you so happy to be a part of my world that I want you to feel included.

Also, I don't want to waste my deal on Sirius Black. I might as well ask for something. I really want you to tell me you want to be a witch so I can do it, because I will never ask you while sober.

GOD DAMN IT LOKI

[emptyyourself]

You probably can. I don't know why you aren't having sex as much and often as possible. You're a deity, after all, and I find it confusing that you don't exploit that to the best possible advantage.

Also, I'm very sorry you have to share a wall with us. In spite of that, I'm not going to bother trying to keep her quiet during sex. I'm smug about that, too.

[emptyyourself]

Shapeshifting should be an enormous draw, but Lupin is married to a shapeshifter and he doesn't ask her to look like anyone else but who she is. I'm very confused about it, actually.

I didn't know you were involved with Reaver. I find this disturbing.

Also, I can soundproof my room, as well. I just haven't bothered anymore.

I will now, however, because I'm afraid you'll try to compete with us and that would put a damper on sex for me.

[hopeless_hacker]

I can't stand that the idea of 'deserving' someone else, for better or worse, is so prominent in the dialogue on relationships. Not least because when someone says 'I don't deserve my wife/husband/partner', what they're generally doing is patting themselves on the back for managing to somehow ensnare them anyway

[emptyyourself]

I don't think I managed to ensnare her. I'm confused as to why she's with me in the first place, actually. I think you have a good theory about both of us being damaged and will probably use that to explain everything I don't understand about it.

I wish I could pursue a friendship with you because I think you are a good woman and Martha loves you, but regardless of the time that has passed and the conversations we've had, I have a crippling sense of guilt regarding what I did to you. However, after this conversation, I might do it just to spite you.

[hopeless_hacker]

I wish you'd have your foot fixed properly. It's completely within your ability. Watching you limp around everywhere makes me feel like you're either trying to make me feel guilty for shooting you or trying to bear a cross for something that was practically a day at the office for me. I hate it. I hate watching you walk across a room. And I actually resent you more for that than I resent that you threatened to kill me and throw me overboard to begin with.

Having said that, I don't actually dislike you, and if you do invest anything in making friends with me then it'll only bother me insofar as I don't know why I deserve anyone's time and attention any more.

[emptyyourself]

I can't actually fix my foot. I've tried, but when I returned home, all resources were being redirected to post-war needs and I couldn't find potions or aid, and I was in such a state of grief and upset that I cared for it improperly.

But now that I know it bothers you, I'm going to take great pains to hide my limp. I think I deserve it, though, just as you deserve time and attention and friendship.