The triathlon was a distraction. It's not working anymore. Today is 2 months since I lost Finn. i'm not handling it nearly as well as I thought I would be so i'm disappointed. i've all but stopped training. I really just don't care.

Last night I trained for an hour and a half. This morning, an hour and a half ( Read more... )

Sore. That's my life for the next six months. Perpetual ache. My feet hurt. Ankles hurt. Calves, shins, knees, thighs, back, abs, shoulders, neck, arms... It all hurts ( Read more... )

In 1990, I broke each of my arms. One on Labor Day. The other on Christmas day. Bike accidents. With the first break, I was able to be active and still ride my bike and play and whatnot. The second break was a whole different ballgame. I was in a lot pain. They were unable to cast it as it was right below my shoulder. I was in a sling for almost 12 ( Read more... )

OH MY GOD I WANT TO PUNCH SOMEONE IN THE FACE.

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Let's see. I screamed at my family for being unsupportive. And then proceeded to be spiteful twds finn's daddy. I don't see how either helped ( Read more... )

I wanted to draw Finn. But it just won't come. I can picture him at different stages based on dreams i've had. He is SO precious and it kills me that he's gone. But I tried to do a rough sketch (with a sharpie on a napkin, no less) and it just wouldn't come. I couldn't make out the details. It made me so sad ( Read more... )

Yesterday my coworker told me it was for the best that Finn died. i'm glad there was a half wall between us. I don't really WANT to get fired. Or go to jail ( Read more... )

I wish warm, dry weather would get here. There's a park in Trussville I want to play in. Or maybe it's in Clay. i'm not too clear on where it is. I mean I know WHERE it is just not sure which city limits it resides in. It's on Hwy 11. Going north away from trussville. Anybody know it? i'm tired of my v/? button being broken on my blackberry and ( Read more... )