ok so everyone is pissed off at me. now i'm just a stupid girl with stupid drama. and honestly...maybe that is all i am. i don't know how to friggen control my emotions anymore. when i was home i always had my girls as my safely blanket....here....i'm pretty much on my own. all i really wanted from him was to be cared about. even though of course i ( Read more... )

so i just read my last entry. i don't remember doing that at all. "talk to the universe"??? yeeeeah my bad...typing and drunk/high...not a good idea. but its all true. i screwed it up so i've got to deal with it right? and i am. i'm okay with it all ( Read more... )

i guess that i was me that screwed everything up in this situation. i guess i usually is me that does this. i've said things and done things that probably didn't prove to him that i really could be with him. and i guess things for both of us have just changed. he's new job that is starting up soon. my crazy ass friends that have got me going every ( Read more... )

i totally forgot that i even had this account...but i really want to type about random stuff and i know that no one reads this so its perfect. well i'm back in boston and i'm already accomplishing absolutely nothing. all i do is sit around and watch sex in the city and will and grace cause thats like 10 times better than reading about a child that ( Read more... )

you know it seems like no matter what i do its never right. i don't even know why i still have this thing. its like the place that i write all the crap that i don't want everyone to see. no one i know even reads these i guess. i hope ( Read more... )

i don't know why i still do this. its kinda retarded. but its better than "bloging" on myspace cause people actually read those. no one really reads this! haha i like it that way ( Read more... )

is it really possible to know who you are going to spend the rest of your life with when you are as young as i am ( Read more... )

hard day to say the least ( Read more... )

whats up pimpin!! ohhhh i'm at home. and i'm oh so happy! you know that feeling....its like...is this a dream? and it seriously freaks you out cause you can't tell if you are asleep or not. thats how the first day or so was. oh my goodness. jeff and sarah and jared came and picked me up from the airport and when jeff was taking me home i was sooooo ( Read more... )

mid terms have been going on all week. i haven't done bad at all...i don't think. except my background exam. that was a funny one. i've had some crazy emotional nights recently. this past weekend i went to a party with someone from my english class and he's roomate. it was a lot of fun...we just listened to a bunch of people play music all night. ( Read more... )