Boy oh boy, I'm quite the ball of feelings ( Read more... )

"I swear I didn't mean for it to be like this...like every inch of me is bruised ( Read more... )

Midpark Church: 'Life is not about any particular​ achievemen​t or experience​. The most important task of your life is not what you do, but who you become.' Ortberg

I feel like so many of the ideas and messages that have made me the rigid version of myself that I am were given to me by the church.

Thanks a whole fucking lot.

I spoke with a counsellor today.

She thinks I have Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.

I feel a whole new journey coming on...

This is my brain, my heart, and my life right now...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Phew. I feel incredibly buried lately. Constantly exasperated ( Read more... )

I tried so hard to delete this journal.

It didn't work.

Because lj allows you to flip-flop over your decisions for days and days and days and days.

And I...am a flip flopper. And a struggler. In two definitions of the word.

Right now I'm struggling in a bad way. I don't really know what's going to come of it.

I need to say Goodbye. I love you.

Well the flood gates didn't exactly remain closed. I'm not as talented at suppression as I would have hoped. Or at the very least--liked to believe ( Read more... )

I can't believe all that life is sometimes. All that it has been, could have been, would have been. All that it might be ( Read more... )