Oh, things are not as bad as the title might seem. I mostly did not want it to be too sugarly optimistic. Things remain in a bit of a roller coaster, but I am on an uphill swing at the moment.

Which is about fair. It figures I got rather sick the first full week of classes. Not sick enough to miss any of them (I'm not sucicidal mind you), but sick ( Read more... )

Sorry I haven't been more able to contact/write/IM/email/post to all of you, but things have rather been surreal since I arrived. Whilst moving things from my aunt's home into her truck, I was shown a little too much love by my aunt's very large black poodle, and I dropped my laptop. The monitor is ruined, but the rest of it is OK. I finally got to ( Read more... )

Off to Dallas for orientation. We'll see if I can update from theres (Most freaking likely--but do I ever update?)

We live, I regret to say, in an age of surfaces
-Oscar Wilde

Imagine, if you will. A gentleman cooks a romantic dinner, sets out candles, picks a movie, and has everything ready. The boyfriend calls and says that he can no longer make it--several people quit at work and that he has to cover their shifts. The boyfriend says that it is not his fault. ( Read more... )

I realized today just how much happier I am now that I have graduated. I'm no longer with a large group of people (my class) that I mostly don't like, and I am in a place, at least for the summer, where the people are extremely friendly. I suppose some happens in every workplace, but I find that this Gloria Jean's is well, a very open place. When ( Read more... )

Graciella and I went to Sunsplash today! I had a wonderful time. Fun rides, some sun, good company... I haven't had a day like that in quite a while. I truly relaxed, and most of you should know how hard that can be for me. Oh! And I got a little color, so I won't have to be pasty white anymore. Whee! Additionally, I make very good BLT sandwiches. ( Read more... )

The result of my first day of hard labor: $2.10 in tips.

Well, I'm feeling much more human tonight. I'm thinking I'll sleep better tonight. The nag is mostly gone, but I'm sure if I let myself dwell on the topic, that it will come back. Funny transient nature of things. Funny how one song will stay in your head for hours, and yet it's all in your mind, you have control, and yet you're powerless to stop ( Read more... )

I just spent the last hour tossing and turning in my bed trying to go to sleep. Once I started doing such to the point of it nearly being aerobic (and a bit ludicrous) I finally gave up and am sitting here thus at my computer. All the random things going through my mind... conversations I haven't had... tomb raider music... and images of me trying ( Read more... )

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