I miss him so much. And I hate him for doing this, for ending whatever we could have been before we had a chance. I hate the fact that he texted me yesterday. I hate the fact that it doesn't feel completely over, but I can't fathom even being his friend again after all this.

I don't ever want to go back to work. It is boring, it's a lot of effort for two hours every morning of...barely doing anything. And the money I make each day is not worth it. $20 for two hours of answering phones and photocopying stuff is not bad. But if I have to spend $5 to get back and forth and if I buy a $5 coffee....that means half the day's ( Read more... )

I am tired of being alone.

There are only so many times people can tell you how beautiful and amazing and brilliant and overwhelming you are and that's why someone else couldn't handle you before it all begins to feel trite.

'"beautiful" and "amazing" just mean "beautiful" and "amazing." nothing more.' - Daphne Gottlieb

An update ( Read more... )

My sex drive is...not exactly missing, but not working quite the way I want it to. I want to have sex. I desire it. And then I do and it's just...not working.

WTF. I don't even know what I'm stressed about to be causing problems like this.

Went over my minutes and talked/texted too much with my Norwegian friend. I now have a $465 phone bill. Way to go, self!

Not working suckssuckssucks.

Getting let go of jury duty after two days is great.

My grandmother had kidney cancer a few years ago and had to have one of her kidneys removed. Her other one is failing now and they're talking about putting her on dialysis ( Read more... )

I'm tired of wanting someone else's body, life, boyfriend, apartment, whatever. So tired.

I just know I want more than what I've got and I don't quite know how to get it.

I wish he would stop dying. I don't want to be here. I don't want to go to another hospital yet again and have them turn him away. I am tired of listening to him howl in pain all day and all night. I just want to put my clothes on and walk out of the apartment and not look back. This isn't my life. I never want to be with anyone or be responsible ( Read more... )

Kinda wish I wasn't crazy. But, if you're taking a girl out to meet some of your friends...maybe you shouldn't act sort of like you didn't bring her. This means being willing to hold her hand or kiss her or whatever without saying "I don't like to explain things to people"

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