焦ってしまうよね。自己破壊的な自分にとって、前向けで色々な能力を身に付けている人は星のように輝いている。

Originally published at enyi.org. You can comment here or there.

Before I forget, because it was a worthwhile read and pinpointed a lot of what my life is, what I am about:

“Where are you from?” from the International Herald Tribune

(Relatively speaking, my background isn’t even that complicated, but it always gets to me that 1) people don’t understand that I’m a “real” American even though I’m not white, and ( Read more... )

Ha - unexpectedly, I passed Level 1 of the Japanese Language Proficiency Test. Now I never, ever have to think about it again! Fantastic. Pay to take it again (being bored for several hours of a test with all this kanji I still can’t read) and aim for a higher score? Hell no. The textbooks I bought (and didn’t use) to study for it are pretty ( Read more... )

I’m going on the ferris wheel at Minato Mirai to see the gorgeous, glittering night view and have it clear my head.

My confusion doesn’t make me an ugly mess - I lose myself while in full(as can be) awareness of how great many aspects of my life are.

That’s it! We need a “good things” list. Now, in no particular order (perhaps not?).

1) I have a ( Read more... )

Okay, here’s a very, very important question for you. (…did I go through this and ask this a year ago or something? Who knows.) So what defines a geek girl? And would I be one?

Actually, it’s a pretty pointless question, but you probably got that.

(I mean, I’m a humanities/artsy/music type. What would that be, a nerd girl? I don’t think ( Read more... )

I want to do something with my life. I have some problems with balance-since getting back from Beijing, I’ve been nervously and greedily eating all sorts of sweets and other foods, sitting on my butt & watching multiple episodes in a row of How I Met Your Mother…wait, this doesn’t sound too good, does it? I sound like a weird couch potato. I say ( Read more... )

This was my first time going to China, since, no, I do not count Taiwan. I took 300+ photos but only liked less than 1/3 of them-go figure. But most of the best parts of my trip were being alone at the Summer Palace, Great Wall, etc., and taking pictures. I haven’t done anything “creative” in so long, but I felt alive and more like myself while ( Read more... )

You know when you’re at that point where you’re so tired that you just keep on digging the hole deeper since you know you’re not going to get enough rest anyhow?  I’m totally at that point!  So much so that I’m even writing a pointless post about it instead of just getting my stuff ready for tomorrow and GOING TO BED.  Expect pictures galore and ( Read more... )

“Stop talking about love. Every asshole in the world says he loves somebody. It means nothing. It still doesn’t mean anything. What you feel only matters to you. It’s what you do to the people you say you love, that’s what matters. It’s the only thing that counts.” From The Last Kiss.

(What do I think?  It’s what matters the most at least.)

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I love Japanese bakeries. Seeing the bread lined up and all the soft & golden colors and having the delicious smell feels almost healing in and of itself. I can’t eat everything even though it all looks so good, so that’s a plus. These bakeries have more variety than those I’ve seen in the U.S. - there are fantastic “dessert breads” with ( Read more... )