No more LiveJournal for now. Most the people whose entries I used to regularly read don't even post anymore. I think I'm going to move somewhere else--maybe I'll post a new link sometime. Feel free to "un-friend" me since this journal is inactive and I won't take it personally.

I like Liang Jing Ru's most recent album, all these sweet, slightly wistful melodies in Chinese pop music--they are familiar, but that's why they can seep into a comfortable, tender murmur under my skin where I house them as delicious articulation of quiet desire & sadness & bliss, all these modest emotions that make up the greater part of my world

When was the last time I posted? Classes have taken over. I don't feel like I have enough personality left in me to say anything remotely interesting in an online journal because it's been sucked away by schoolwork. At least I can tell you what I'm up to. I'm taking classes on Meiji literature, gesture/performance studies, and classical ( Read more... )

Some part of me really misses writing here, but with graduate school, I don't really have the emotional capacity to sit down and write an entry at the end of the day. Things have been especially hectic after reading and writing papers during almost my entire winter break, then returning to school to deal with the sticky mess of figuring out my ( Read more... )

Hmm...I think I will just be writing here from now on.

On the train, which has just started to shudder & move, heading away from Boston. I’m listening to Rent, which always does something special for me. Something in me responds strongly to the voices of characters who realize the transience of life while groping in the dark for light.

Do you sometimes wish that you could be completely raw? Turn ( Read more... )

I decided that I had to write something, even if it came out scrambled and strange.  So what am I doing - I’m preparing to write final papers for my classes for the semester, but I’m sitting now on the futon in a friend’s apartment in Boston after several days of visiting & many amusing things: a dog with accusing eyes, a very nice old house with ( Read more... )

Is that sometimes you need to give things up and let go.  And sometimes you need to realize that you won’t be able to let go, and take steps to give everything towards getting what you desire so badly.

Originally published at enyi.org. You can comment here or there.

I feel really really dumb.  I talk and write like I’m still in middle school - my level of thought is often at the same place, too.  Can I not produce anything better because I’m rushed for time, or because I just am not as smart as other people?  What if I just don’t have many interesting thoughts or remotely meaningful and/or relevant ( Read more... )

I want to talk about several things in this post.  Firstly, how much I’m enjoying the start of my first semester of graduate school.  I’m taking classes in postwar Japanese literature, Japanese film from the 60’s on, literary Japanese, and comparative literature (a introductory “proseminar”).  A good portion of these several weeks has been spent ( Read more... )