its like all i want is for him to care and everyone else cares but he doesnt even notice im hurt. all i want is for him to say like aww im sry or something nice but all he can say is that i make up excuses to be mad and i just need a reason to be mad. i told him since he left its been like one bad thing after another. and it has. apparently i cant ( Read more... )

so its safe to say that this break thoroughly sucked. is that how u spell it? i havent touched livejournal in forever i think im gonna try to use it more often. so yea i hung out with jill like once and then all of a sudden a ton more people were added and no one talked to me. this is why i have to find some new friends from my own school, so i ( Read more... )

just got back from camp... it was fun i guess. i jet skiied a lot and went swimming a few times. i love to swim. our toilet is broken and my dad didnt have enough time to fix it, but its close. nothing interesting has happened to me since i last posted. i realized that im happy alone and i dont really need anyone else. its weird cuz ive always ( Read more... )

we had a horse lesson saturday and pat and i decided i should have a black toyota tundra. yes. that is what kind of truck i will have... when i can afford it. it was sooooo hot and i had to hose my horse off before i rode her. just as she was drying off, we started working and she got sweaty again. it was gross. i realized that when i have a lesson ( Read more... )

i kinda wish that i was single cuz i like the way that guys look at me. like im something new and special. like they wanna get to know me. but i love jaret, but hes never here. which shouldnt matter cuz none of my friends do anything to go out and meet ppl anyway. its like theyre happy with their friends and they dont wanna meet anyone new who ( Read more... )

my tummy hurts. no one cares but i felt the need to say that my tummy really hurts. i went to see menopause the musical. it was amazing. i wish they made it into a movie. id buy it :) anyway... jarets coming here tomorrow maybe i dunno. but he'll be here sometime this week. i love him more than anyone cuz he understands me and he doesnt judge me ( Read more... )

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i rode martha tonight in a thunder/lightning storm. barb was scared for me but i dont think i could have gotten struck by lightning. cuz ur almost in a crouching position when u ride and so lightning doesnt wanna have to cuve, it would rather hit something and just go straight down to the ground. ive also been told that lightning goes from the ( Read more... )

i broke the washing machine trying to do laundry. now my laundry is soaking wet cuz the water wont drain and i still have dirty white clothes to wash. technology is gay. i think im gonna keep writing in this cuz its fun and i have no one else to tell my problems to and this way no one can tell me they dont care or stop listening. if they dont care ( Read more... )

so if u dont wanna hear what i have to say then dont read this. that makes sense right? well apparently not cuz some ppl still dont get it. and livejournal is hardly the internet cuz ive tried to search for ppl on this and its pretty hard. especially when most of these are friends only. ive also blocked some ppl from commenting cuz i dont like ( Read more... )