get over it. ppl arent always gonna like u or be nice to u. some ppl actually wanna speak their minds once in a while. u guys always get mad at me cuz u dont know the facts... w/e... i dont need u guys, i really dont. and ur sticking up for my friend? well if she has a problem i dunno why she doesnt tell me herself... fuck u and ur ignorance. i ( Read more... )

i miss last year. i miss last summer. how no one ever fighted. how we never had boys taking us away from each other. boys are bad and all they do is cheat and make us cry. i like my boy tho. i did good this time. he wont cheat. he makes me cry sometimes but usually i do it to myself so i usually deserve it. i feel emotionally numb right now... i ( Read more... )

i had another bad dream today. at least this time i didnt get nail gunned in the head. i got chased by a guy wearing a red suit and a red hat that looked weird. its hard to describe him. but he killed like a teacher or something even tho i told her to get out. see, even in my dreams no one listens to me. but he was killing her and i ran away and i ( Read more... )

its super boring here... i hate syracuse... i liked being in Schoharie with jarhead cuz his friends always call him and always wanna hang out... the only one who ever calls me is my mom and jill. and when hes with his friends they actually listen to him, they dont sit there and wait for him to finish so they can talk about themselves. i hate ( Read more... )

put ur itunes on random and write something about the 10 that come up... dont skip any... (ryans idea is fun ( Read more... )

i dont wanna be a part of a group who excludes ppl... thats rude. so yes since my friends have abandoned me, i am finding new ppl to hang out with. if i had a job this would be easier, i wouldnt have to wait up all night hoping someone will call me with something to do cuz id be at work. but no taco bell is fucked up so i have to suffer with no job ( Read more... )

im dead to my friends... sweet. the one entry that i thought ppl would comment on, they didnt. that was weird. i missed a quiz today in meteorology cuz i was so sick. sweet, im gonna fail. i fail at everything... i suck at life. im never gonna get back into cortland and see jaret and get a job and be something... sweet. its too hot outside ( Read more... )

im sick.
i hope i dont end up in the hospital again.
the way things are going... i might.
my head hurts a lot and i can feel every strand of hair on my head.
thats not normal.
i had fun at jarets this weekend.
i wish we had sex more.
i was horny.
stupid period.
work now.
this is gonna kill me.

i like my new font and color and stuff :) pink makes me happy

have u ever wanted to not exist? or just have ppl not notice u? or just get the hell out of here and start over and make a new reputation for urself? where no one knows u or anything about u and cant judge u and where u can pick ur friends and not just hang out with whoever is closest to u. i honestly am so sick of syracuse. theres nothing to do ( Read more... )