so random subject, but this is a pretty random night actually. me and kiel are fixing to leave here again to meet all the boys.. hmm, that should be an interesting time. i'm going to miss kieli while she's at the beach next week.. oh well, hopefully she'll come back with a present for her favorite person in the world ( Read more... )

the one thing that irks me even more than lying would have to be people trying to live my life for me. damn, leave me alone and let me fuck up and make my own decisions by myself. it's nice that you care, but don't be an ass about it. and really don't leave me annonymous comments telling me how i should be living my life because guess what.. my ( Read more... )

- bad week last week ( Read more... )

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me and my mom got in another fight. so i'm at daddy's now, and alex is getting me in a little while. i have the worst headache from crying.. and she wonders why i hate being at home. and then other people wonder why i do the things i do.. yeah, you really don't get it do you? it must be great to be perfect, get along with your parents, and actually ( Read more... )

me and nicky are all better now!
i was supposed to go to the lake with them tomorrow,
but we're not going anymore :(
me, kiel, and erica are going to atlantic saturday though.
i'm excited!i have to work this afternoon until closing ( Read more... )

so me and jordan are over for now. it sucks, but what can i do.. i mean it was all my fault. i fucked up, so now i'm paying for it. big time. just hopefully one day... on top of that-- nicky's mad at me. and nicky's NEVER mad at me. he won't even talk to me right now. this fucking sucks, and i can't deal with it. i lost my boyfriend, and now my ( Read more... )

me and court are leaving in an hour to go to the beach.. i can't WAIT to get out of burlington for a few days. this is definately going to be my "shot of happiness ( Read more... )

ugh. i don't know what to do anymore. i can't make a right decision; everything i do fucks something up. me and jordan are FINALLY good again, and what do i do? fuck up everything. i didn't even know that it would matter, but i guess it did. i mean damn, i went to eat lunch with somebody.. what's he think i'm gonna do? i can't take much more of ( Read more... )

let's see.. the past two weeks i've accomplished to fuck up one of the most important relationships in my life. nothing at all seems to work. i've cried to him, begged him, left him alone, kissed his ass, apologized out my ass. everything. and nothing can fix what i've fucked up. i know i don't deserve another chance, and considering what i did, i ( Read more... )