yeah, so i went and saw ladder 49 with morgan...holy shit i never want to marry someone who is a fire fighter or a police officer....no way, i would hate worrying that much...i don't know anyways i drank coffee, i got decaf thinking it would be okay to go to sleep, but of course not, i forgot that there's chocolate in there too, so it sucks, i'll ( Read more... )

also, why do i keep having dreams that i'm trying to call greg, but i can't press the right buttons and that i'm driving down the street and all the dead people i know are walking and i can touch them, but when i get to my uncle steve, he turns into a different person and i can't touch him?

i don't know why i am writing this, i have nothing new to say....what's new other than not going out or not really having friends because they all turn scarce when something changes.....sometimes i feel like i just told the whole world that i'm gay and everyone runs.....how am i supposed to deal with all the issues inside of myself and then worry ( Read more... )

anyways, so since i was super lonely at home all the time since everyone is always gone, with school and work and dinners, so i finally convinced them that I needed a cat.....so today my grandma came and took me to get one.....it us such a cutey, i love it. I just wish it was a little more calm, but i'm sure it will be with time, since it has all ( Read more... )

Sometimes I wonder if I should just stay away from everyone in general, that way I can't emotionally hurt anyone and they can't me. Maybe it would be less complicated ( Read more... )

well once again i am fooled by what i think is nice guy.....why do they always act so much like they like you and then all of a sudden because they brought up hanging out one day and you follow up with it, now they need space, what do you want me to move to mexico so that its impossible to see each other every day except if we were millionaires. ( Read more... )

what do you do when someone you cares about pushes you away, how do you know that it just isn't you....why is everything so complicated, don't you understand that I really wanted to hang out soon and I don't see that happening.....i hate being lied to or lead on, its bullshit and you have no idea how much it hurts.......thinking about that.

is it bad when you don't take a shower for 2whole days ( Read more... )

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so this is how it feels to be left, ignored, whatever you want to call it...the only positive thing is that supposedly it happens to plenty of normal women

so i guess its time for some SEX AND THE CITY, because at leas they are getting some action or treating guys like shit.