WORRIED FOR MY FAMILY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[eriquita_nicole]

well, im feeling pretty bad actually. not physically (infact i can tell that im getting better). monica didnt stay here for lunch, and im here in mari's by myself. someones entry made me really sad. this morning again, i had some trouble holding back my tears. i always think about it most on my way to school. latley it's just been alot harder

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[soccer_gurl03]

I'm not judging you so don't worry about that...if you feel like crying you should just let it out...if you hold it in for too long it'll just get worse. SO DON'T WORRY BE HAPPY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHA ms mata's funny she was trying to read this but she couldnt lol my stomach hurts and i have to pee now...and you ate all the melon :( bricias looking at me shes silly...silly goose!!! okay we're gonna go practice now so btye..hahaha i mispelled bye...ok bye!

[eriquita_nicole]

im sorry dude, but thats the very thing that makes me upset. when people tell me not to worry, and be happy. or not to think about it, and try to make me laugh. it doesnt work that way. i feel like crying everyday, but its not as easy as people think to just let it out. its not as easy....

[sexysady81]

Awww Erika, I totally know how you feel. Its so sad because losing Anthony should have brought our family closer and instead we all seem so much further apart. We lost one beloved family member and losing him should make us realize that at any moment (GOD FORBID) we could lose another. IF anything I appreciate and love my family now more than ever. You guys are one of my main reasons for breathing

[takenaway]

Erika,
You speak nothing but the truth. I know exactly what you mean. I'm not saying that things shouldn't have changed, but we all should have changed for the better. I may not be around a lot or talk that much when we're at family things, but I enjoy every moment of it. It's nice to see us all together, laughing, eating, just being there. They'll all figure it out eventually...I just pray that it's sooner instead of later.
We all know how you feel about the whole no one but the family gets it thing. I have my quiet moments and when asked, I don't want to answer. These people don't know, and what can they say to make it better. Only we can do that for ourselves. I love our family and I don't like to watch it fall apart. At least we all have each other...you, me, and sarah...we get it. I just hope one day we can show everyone else.

lj

[eriquita_nicole]

im glad you guys understand. well...i knew you would. we're gonna have to see how the holidays go, as hard as theyre gonna be. i know for thanksgiving, we're staying home. your right, i hope they realize that we need to spend that time together sooner than later. love you guys