I am so glad to be off of Geodon and on Seroquel. The Geodon was really messing with my thoughts and energy and outlook. I am WAY better ( Read more... )

I'm really fed up with my life revolving around medical crap yet not getting any better. I should be grateful... I may not be better but I'm alive and not blind, so there's that ( Read more... )

I'm stunned at how much better I feel since cutting the Geodon down. WOW was it messing with my head and energy levels. What a weird medication ( Read more... )

The dark cloud was definitely strengthened by the Geodon. I've been on a half dose for a couple of days and it's made a big difference. I'm going through withdrawals of sorts - my whole body is shaking by the time I take my daily dose ( Read more... )

I realized today that a lot of my dark thoughts come from a worry about the future. And I can't really put that into perspective until I know how much of my eyesight will return, and what I'll be able to do after that point ( Read more... )

Battling very bad very dark thoughts. I thought the news of the upcoming surgery had banished them away, but only for a couple of weeks... now I'm back to being the really bad sort of crazy ( Read more... )

Patching again today - brain just can't handle the double images. I had to stop for about a week - the lack of light was causing depression, plus my right eye has uncrossed a bit. But for some reason, today I can't deal ( Read more... )

I am so glad the days now get shorter. The sunlight has been getting to me, and not even having nighttime for a walkabout has sucked. The heat this week... well, today isn't so bad because it's cloudy. As long as it stays that way, the apartment doesn't get too bad ( Read more... )

Heat wave this week. Thankfully, I have no obligations and can just relax indoors and avoid the sun entirely. I'm supposed to see the dermatologist on Thursday, but my regular doc is out for the summer (teaching hospital) and I'm not in a skin flare and they've already said they won't manage my plaquenil, so I'm rescheduling for after my surgery ( Read more... )

I got to see my mom and it was good. That she is a nurse really helps... she gives me perspective because her viewpoint is medical, not emotional. Plus she's not apt to make excuses for anyone, especially me. So when she tells me I need to cut myself some slack, and roll with the very normal emotions I am experiencing, it sets me at ease ( Read more... )