The flurries swirl outside my window, calling.
I press my hand on the glass and feel it's chill.
Particles of white increase in number, beckoning.
In a trance I head to the door
no coat, no shoes.

The cold rushes over me like needles, stabbing.
Spinning my body, arms outstretched, I grab the moment.
Fragments of ivory engulf my anatomy, gripping.
Immobile ( Read more... )

Dearest friend, you must admit you saw this
demise coming from far ahead
We were kids, throwing words back and forth,
desperate for a sense of maturity.

so please just step away, leave me be
there is isn't a vaccine for the disease that cripples me

Bleed this, bleed it out
screaming how beauty fades
but the ugly lies are forever

Bleed this, bleed it on the ( Read more... )

There has been a lot of changes since my last post back in May. As an update, I do have cysts on my ovaries and my doctor told me I have Hypothyroidism. I took thyroid balancing pills (levothyroxin) for almost three months, but had to stop since my insurance ran out. My insurance ran out do to quitting my job because of other issues. Those "other ( Read more... )

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So I have been extremely busy since my last entry, however I have yet to even begin the steps for going to college. Although, I think I finally have a "plan", but first an update ( Read more... )

I am being torn apart.

Ripped open.

They feast on my optimism.
and strengthen my pessimism.

Bleed the past.
Bleed the present.
Erase the future.

Forget Forget Forget

I am being held at gunpoint
with my own finger on the trigger.

Freedom is the most misunderstood
when you've put yourself in a cage.

Rescue me.

Those were the days.

I thought I knew everything.
I thought I was invincible.
I was daring.
I was careless.

Mostly, I was naive.

Definition: Dubbed as Kelley at birth. The name is Celtic in heritage and means, "female warrior". Knowledge is my weapon of choice and I wield it with brutal force. I have a knack for demolition and construction, as I am skilled in both. All things aesthetic please me, though not in a mainstream sense. I see flaws in everything, that others would ( Read more... )

Twist the knife deep within my spine ( Read more... )

I can't quell this urge to burn it down.

The smoke billows from the windows

as the flames reach your feet.

run run run

The kiss, the hug, the lies that hid beneath

I wanted a purity I never could reach.

I wanted the tears to fall, drain my eyes of all the lies

and no matter who I have it will always be

a simple, endless waiting game.