Even with all these feelings of betrayal, I have made plans to move out and get an apartment with Bryan. I know he loves me, but I think the main problem is the love I lack for myself. It does hurt every time I look at him because we was the man of my dreams and all I can see is how much he is like everyone else ( Read more... )

Every emotion seems to happen in the extreme for me. When I am happy, I am completely overjoyed and feel like I'm going to burst. While when I am sad, I can feel the pain throughout my entire body and just want to die because it feels like it will never subside ( Read more... )

Yeah so I'm hoping to be financially stable enough to move out in the next month.

Not only would it be a hell of a birthday gift, I wouldn't have to deal with all my dad's bullshit anymore.

(crossing my fingers we get the apt we want)

Bryan bought the Cable Guy, Fight Club, Frailty and Cast Away tonight. Amazing movies. So, I'm gunna start Cable Guy ( Read more... )

fuck parents.

fuck sexist bastards.

fuck liars.

fuck deadlines.

fuck fuck fuuuuuck

    It is doubtful that anything I have to say in the "letter" will make even the slightest bit of sense. Above everything else, confusing people seems to be what I'm best at. I have been on this crusade for the best of jobs that my no experience can possibly get me. Needless to say, it's a short list. I have made some progress, if that's what ( Read more... )

I keep having dreams about something that I thought I was over. The situation that I was in months ago wasn't a good one, but it certainly wasn't the worst. Now, I just feel this insatiable drive to get back to that time. Like I made a mistake. But I am grateful for what I have now. I tend to question everything more than ever...

I hate how they won ( Read more... )

YOU KNOW WHAT.

I FUCKING  LOVE HOW NO ONE POSTS ANY GOD DAMN COMMENTS ON MY LJ.

AM I NOT GOOD ENOUGH OR SOMETHING???

NO NO...I'M TOO GOOD. THAT'S IT.

you all suck dick.

lots of fucking crooked cocks.

....small crooked cocks....

I never thought acquiring a job would be so difficult.  True, I dread the thought of working in fast-food because I know I how the customers and supervisors treat the employees. However, those issues happen in every type of business, but for some reason the thought of working in a McDonald's absolutely disgusts me...petty, I know ( Read more... )

Bryan and I moved from his house to mine on Friday. We plan on living with my parents for 4 months to save up some money, finally get my license and a car for both Bryan and I. We have a lot of work and saving to do, but in the end, it will all have been worth it ( Read more... )

Life is no more than a series of unrelated
events that once cease, form the puzzle of fate.

I have always had this way of thinking that seems to be unique compared to those my age. Perhaps everyone has thoughts like mine but fail to acknowledge them in any social setting. Besides, it would really be too perfect to suspect I surpass others....and a ( Read more... )