I can't help but feel a void in my life ( Read more... )

Hey. I was looking back on some of my later journals to realize, my philosophies were crap! I must have been a complete moron honestly...And I was so pessimistic. I still am but I love life still. I've changed so much in this short amount of time...strange.

wow my spirit is almost crushed at this moment...and I should have known better, but no...ouch...I'll get over it....but wow I havent felt that way in a long time...

It's funny how one person can say something and it makes you realize they were never your friend, they never bothered to actually try and understand what went wrong or why you are the way you are and now I realize that this person has no idea what I have been through and they will continue complaining to me about how horrrible things are in their ( Read more... )

well that's basically it life has exausted me...I need to move out regardless of the fact I will lose everything I don't care, I am dying inside...I am confused and hurt.... it's funny because only the people you love can hurt you ...so why bother loving...I am done with life...seriously....you know what would be funny if I typed that and the next ( Read more... )

I fucked up...bad I did and said some shit that is fucking haunting me at the moment I can't fucking believe this shit man fuck...fuck...fuck....what the hell did I do? I hope this will be something small later on ....and no one will care about it...I hope...fuck...I fucked up I think...really...really bad man ...

My mom left me again...she left for the first like 12 years of my life and now she left a week ago...I found out on saturday...what a bitch and she took my brother and the only escape I had with her. She took the last of my emotions...my friend Jarrod found out that I haven't cried since 5th grade...he said I was dying inside...and now I know what ( Read more... )

I found that the one person I felt could mak eme happy can no longer do that we are two different people I didn't see that until a day ago now I must hurt someone I truely care for...damn it man I have so much emotional/mental crap going on right now...fuck...

I have never felt so happy I found someone special...truely special...I feel wanted...god I'm happy...be happy with me...yet I'm afraid and I need to get over that...really...I think this is special, really special is that odd of me???

I feel that I have a few addictions that will escalade out of control smoking will kill me and I hope I don't start up again no matter how tempting drinking it stress relieving and I know is out of control but now I realize addictions can never be stopped they are always part of you, festering until you grow weak...I can't do this anymore...be weak ( Read more... )