Still I have this feeling of mental unstableness I don't think I'll ever be stable I wonder why but my life wasn't that bad just painful my past reminds me of who I really am and what I will become. My mother a fucked up whore I won't lie. She was a fucking drug addict who would trip out on speed and trip out on me and hey even leave me on my ( Read more... )

Meh I don't know how I feel anymore I truely wish I did My life is confusing and has lost it's meaning it seems I don't understand things anymore, like I ever did whatever what am I supposed to do just write on this crap hoping to find someone who understands immpossible everyone's life is too different to understand eachothers I have mentally ( Read more... )

I have so many reports and essays it's sick and of course I'm tierd and over worked and I need sleep badly I want to stay home for one day to just study and catch up but I can't I'm so tierd and I typed my essay and my computer ran out of ink so you can barely see the words but I have to turn it in tommorow no matter what so this sucks. I can't ( Read more... )

I realize that live journal sucks... There is now way to tell how you feel truely and my posts are becoming more confusing and I'm sick of live journal bassically so I will post every now and then if something actually interesting happens in my life. But for now I'll just leave.

I guess life is going to suprise you eventually...I don't know why I'm even thinking about it. But mine really has, honestlly My life has dumped around so much. I've been through so much, not nearly as much as some people I know. But I guess it is all for the better, Life teaches you lessons everyday, and I've been to mad to even realize that. it ( Read more... )

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I'm trying to do a mowhwak with my hair, but failing miserably... but eh I'll keep trying. My goal is to go to school with a mowhawk on monday.

Eh my week so far is kind of boring. Testing starts next week and I don't think anyone is too excited about that...Oh yeah my baby brother was born last thursday. And thats about it, nothing really exciting is happening. Didn't I already say that? Oh well...I finished my english project alreday, so that is great now I only have like almost 300 ( Read more... )

I went to DisneyLand yesterday, but it was more of a chill out day. Then we ate at some expensive restaurant and I felt so bad. We spent 161 dollars. Can you believe that? If I would have not eaten there and made a sandwich instead, then I could sent my 40 dollar meal to someone who truly needs it. It was a big mood ruiner. There is an ALS walk ( Read more... )

I went to acquire the fire this weekened. It was nice. It is really helpful to be surrounded by thousands of joyful people. I got to be myself they didn't care what music I listened to or how I dresses. It was so releaving to see so many people just like me there. I have never felt so much like myself.