This week is going by so slow...I'm constantly tierd, I don't know why. But my happy level has boosted, but not by much. Spring break is comming up and I leave on friday to go to San Diego for a church thing I guess it will be fun. Then I'm going to Disneyland...I don't like Disneyland though, everything is too rutine there. The whole day is ( Read more... )

I am everything I hate... i noticed that after my last entry it just seems I hate people because they show me who I truely am and it is upsetting to see that king of person... someone I didn't even know exsisted...now it is one of my fears I can look at my stupidity, everyone's stupidity... look at my arms, they tell stories I am too heartless it ( Read more... )

I'm really tired and Alma's family is here so no sleep for Rachael...Oh well...My parents are painting their room and I'm stuck trying to keep the rest of them entertained...There is nothing on TV, the whole house is clean , and it's raining so I can't go outside...I designed my computer thing it was fun but now I'm done, and there is nothing more ( Read more... )

Yesterday i was in the ermergency room from 1 in the morning to 8:30 its funny because i went there for a really bad ear ache and it turns out i have a bad inner ear infection and my breathing is abnormal. They hooked me up to an IV and gave me a lot of pain killers and other medications, they gave me a breathing treatment. And whenever i tried to ( Read more... )

i've had such a bad week so far i don't even know why but being around so many people doesn't help at all this black dude in my class is pissing me off...on monday he threw all my shit on the groung on tuesday he kept yelling random things that i was doing to try and get me introuble and he put a lot of lip stuff on then kissed my arm which grossed ( Read more... )

It's so hot outsaide, it's like death. I hate the heat and when there is that much sun outside I burn in the water...I'm looking forward to practice though, it is a nice day to swim i guess. Life is boring at the moment... I have so much to do this weekend... I have workout instead of the swim meet on friday and saturday because there are too many ( Read more... )

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I hate regreting my past but I've hurt so many people who love and care about me and it really makes me sad because i know i cant take back what i've done and theres no way to apoligize to the people i've hurt i wish i had the courage to do so and the courage to tell the people who have hurt me that they have done so but i am a coward it seems and ( Read more... )

I know its odd but i have been taking depression tests to see if thats why i am depressed without knowing why and on all three i have taken they all say that i have slightly sever depression...its weird i dont mind being sad all the time now because i know what my feelings will be everyday when i wake up and i guess i choose to be this way and i ( Read more... )

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