I hate to be so damn apathetic but im just a apathetic person. In these past 3 days i've realised that there are things about myself that i cant change no matter what action i take and no matter what makeup I try to use to cover that up. I will never be streight edge, thats not who I am. I will never fall in love, get married, have kids and grow ( Read more... )

i havent hung out with anyone in so long. i feel so socially deprived. not that i really care. ive wrote a lot of decent songs lately. its given me room to think. how is it that all of the loser fags fall in love with me? what the hell. why cant i manage a good guy with a rebellious twist. doesnt matter, the guys that like me are ugly as hell, not ( Read more... )

so, its sunday and im at baylies. moderately boring to be honest, nothing in particular going on. Baylie got her nose periced last night because she's cool. the guy like, twisted the needle all the way up and i was winceing looking at him do it. and to think, im getting an industeral peirceing in two weeks. ouch. thats going to hurt, not to mention ( Read more... )

I was supposed to go to laser tag with devon and bernie tonight but i actually did my hair tonight and i didnt feel like fucking it up. so i setteld for watching transporter one and two with my dad. which fucked my hair up anyway because i ended up falling asleep. so now its 12 o'clock and im still bored as hell. tomarrow im being forced into going ( Read more... )

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I was reading entries on here from early this year about Cameron and such and I think I really truly miss that kid. I can’t believe I was so shallow to put Garten before him. That’s so gay. Im coming to the point where I just don’t seem to care about Joe the same way I used to. It used to be a passion but now its nothing but a past time. Maybe one ( Read more... )

yeah im at devons, with like, bernie, and alicia. listening to dane cook. yeah it doesnt get better then that. well yeah, it does, we could have hott guys over. but it doesnt work that way. yeah, we were supposed to have band pratice too. but, we didnt. yeah. im bored.

hannah got to me again. i started thinking about band ethic today after she made a commetn and i realized shes right. truth is, devon needs to get her shit together and mature a little(really no pun intended), bernie needs to get really serious, Alicia cant really do anything more than she is now. i may seem alittle harsh and bold, but i beat ( Read more... )

Spell your first name backwards: assirak ( Read more... )

~~~~~~i love this song ( Read more... )