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a "video" montage (for a lack of a better phrase) i made for 'bang bang, you're dead' ...made this a a while ago. I love Ben Foster <3
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a bit of an update of the past couple of days ...some events good, some events bad.
I am exhausted from heavy alcohol use. My poor body ...no wonder i was getting sharp chest pain yesterday before going out ...for the first time in a while, i didn't enjoy drinking while being out (shopping locally) oh, and also, as an observation ...woman ( ( Read more... ) -
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I think I'm going to postpone going out to get the card, etc. I've taken a calcium/magnesium capsule, thanks to my sis being a nutritionist (haha, i know right?) apparently those help with muscle tension or something, I've forgotten already, but they are also supposed be good for headaches.
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I had one of the most interesting dreams last night ...very detailed and multidimensional in nature ...i seriously wish i could record them, so i could have copies to show people, and to watch again, myself. I slept all night (again ...yes! i slept all night) with the air conditioner blowing in my face ..was almost going to sleep with it shut of .. ( Read more... ) -
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I have a pretty stressful day ahead of me ..don't know how i feel about it yet... hopefully good. hmm.
I have about $30.00 left ...and i will not spend it frivolously! I have an appt. with JPET, and clockwork (more blood work) today (marge is apparently still sick so i have to see that other silly woman :S) the receptionist person called me last ( Read more... ) -
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People like him remind me of why i'm still here, and still trying ...not for my sake, but something bigger. The most beautiful thing one can possibly achieve is impacting somebody else in such a way that they are made to feel how how he makes me feel.
He is my inspiration.
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I'm trying to get an entry down before I get sleepy and have to lay my head down to "rest" for a bit. Body wants sleep ...brain? does. not. want. grrrr. do not want to resort to self-medicating. I suppose, for now, i aim to document some "eventful" moments during yesterday's stupefied escapade (aka: attempted life participation).
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I don't know if I want to go out now ...it's going to be really hot today, and knowing me ...I'll be out there with a big puffy jacket on with jeans. Brandy doesn't exactly cool the body down either. I'm not feeling tired though ...it's 11 am. The sound of cars outside is freaking me out ... it's making the world feel big out there.
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So it's 3 am. My sleep cycles are so erratic lately. Not that i mind, I consider myself an after midnight person. Things are quieter. The world is asleep, and i am at peace because i am wide awake. It reminds me of that song "midnight in a perfect world" ...I believe that the world is only perfect when it's midnight. I'm feeling kind of avoidant, ( Read more... )
