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Sorry to disappoint you.
How is it that I have two wonderful, patient people like this in my life to give two damns about what goes on with me when no one else seems to bother because to them ..I'm in the 'too hard' basket ? I actually, do not blame them ..I wouldn't want to care about me either. Seeing as though I am clearly a horrible person that keeps messing everything ( Read more... ) -
Things I haven't told you yet.
Oh, darling. You *are* on my mind. Silly Sally.
You plague my mind with so many thoughts, it's not funny.
How many times have I given you the opportunity to exploit me in situations, and you didn't? I have an enormous amount of respect for you. You make a concerted effort to get to know me, you don't treat me like a complete failure. I wish you ( Read more... ) -
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He fascinates me but I really wish I knew what was on his mind ..please don't tell me I have fallen prey to my paranoid ideation again, and my un-tamable jealously streak.
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poignant encounters.
It's 3 am ..what's different.
I spent quite some time away from here ...mostly to spend time with overall self-destruction in general. Multifaceted self-destruction, at that. So anyway, I'll probably post a couple more entries in the upcoming weeks or so it's just ..I have been refusing to process stuff ..do duh, I've been avoiding a place called ( Read more... ) -
eating update.
So ...I feel a little bit better after my last post. My therapy session went sort of okayish, but I think she noticed some weight loss, didn't overtly broach the subject but it was implied, she did probe a bit ...I know that I've already lost a significant amount of weight ...I still can't bring myself to eat enough as I should, let alone a binge ( Read more... ) -
diagnostic criteria & eating disorders.
I haven’t eaten much this past week, or so.
Because I feel like I’m lapsing into full-blown bulima. That would mean a second diagnostic crossover in my ED history. Have always had short periods of "bulima", but only ever once have I been diagnosed as being bulimic, meeting all DSM-IV-TR criteria for it. I detest my bulimic phases ..absolutely ( Read more... ) -
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ok, so ..yesterday was a long day. Got a few things to scribble about in here ... fridays are always ...interesting.
In a nutshell? I was a fool, pretty much.
Had a few things to organize in the city ..so it was fun, my sister drove us, she came to help me with it as i find it difficult dealing with people that mess every detail about me, ( Read more... ) -
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I just wanted to post quickly to say that (in regards to people that have friended me, or friended me back etc) that I'm sorry i don't comment all that much ..i do, however read all entries that pop up on my f-page ...if i haven't seen a post from you in a while i will visit your journal and read your last entry, or so :)
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I haven't written in a while ...i think that's usually because i have too much swirling around in my head that i need to process.
Not that i think i exactly ended up processing much. which is typical. I don't have a structured way of dealing with things, especially stress.
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my therpist told me to do this last time i saw her, and i have been putting it off ...soo
things I'd be doing right now if i didn't have anxiety problems, etc:
- completing high school
- writing a screenplay
- choosing an altruistic career path
- working on artistic projects
- spending more time with friends
- working a job i could handle
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