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Blah.
I am feeling tired and drained. It makes sense tho.
Still, I wish I felt better.
I think my work takes more out of me than I was expecting. I need to find a way to recharge.
First tho, to finish this embroidery commission. -
Comfort. Food.
I'm eagerly awaiting the delivery of my black-market chicken (probably next week, or later this week) so I can roast one, and eat as much of it as I can, on root vegetables. -
Just the Facts, Ma'am.
I'm working in a job supporting work I value highly, feeling like I can be myself. My probation is over in 10 days. The hardest part is managing my relationship with my manager ( Read more... ) -
Some thoughts on sobriety and being present.
I am an Adult Child of an Alcoholic. It’s an identity I often refer to in an almost-facetious way but I need to sometimes be vulnerable and upfront: Growing up with a parent with a significant drinking problem has affected me deeply in a number of ways. One way is that being around ‘drinking is normal’ for me, I tend to be paranoid about the ( Read more... ) -
Getting Used To It.
I've been at my job just over a month - at the point where I'll be getting a full paycheck next Friday ( Read more... ) -
Security
I'm not used to feeling safe. I'm usually feeling some sort of insecurity - or lack of safety - in one area of my life or another ( Read more... ) -
Better this week.
So, last week I didn't eat enough. This week, I've been eating more and my mood's improved ( Read more... ) -
Winter Mood.
I think I've been pushing myself too hard. I'm frustrated at how much I need to sleep, and how often (and much) I need to eat. Due to the year-long stress of not having enough cash, and the current 'too busy' situation, my brain decided that a solution was to eat smaller meals, and no snacks. I can't explain the logic, just that maybe it accounts ( Read more... ) -
Winter.
It's dark, and I think my winter depression is creeping in. I'm debating if I need to up my meds are not. (I'm at the lowest end of the dosage for my condition ( Read more... ) -
Stuff and feelings:
1)I'm trying to write more - partially to update this journal more (I remember it being healthy and positive.) Also just to flex my writing muscles again. Writing is a medium I miss dearly and gradually fell away from - maybe I can wander my way back. I've been encouraged by a couple of people, based on quick paragraphs I knocked off. I must still ( Read more... )