well lots have changed in a year and not where people would expect it...i moved in with Jason in January...and we got engaged may 15th of this year...we are planing to buy a house before we plan the wedding tho so it might not be till 2011. I start school on tuesday of next week i am taking a legal adm diploma at reeves college. so i am only ( Read more... )

so eleven more days and it will be the anniversery of paul commiting suicide...im happy now but of course it still bothers me alot...jason is helping me we went to a memorial that was actully for my gramma and otehrs that died in the past year but the speaker was talking about suicide i guess thats one of her "specialties" and it killed me jason ( Read more... )

God life has a way of throwning curve balls at you...I transfered to Grocery cause the hours are kinda better there...five to one thirty and in september i can go straight to pick orion up from school....which is awesome....my little baby turned seven on august 11th OMG he's seven...my baby boy is seven....which is good but omg that means im twenty ( Read more... )

well i dont remember what i wrote last time...i guess it dont matter anyway lol ( Read more... )

so chris is sick...its our two months and he's sick...i wanted to see him...and i think i'll get too but i dont know...orions not home from his friends house yet and that kinda sucks cause he has homework to do and he wanted a bath tonight and i wanna put him to bed before i go out...bah...oh well ( Read more... )

ok so i havent been around for a bit its kinda been a sucky last four months of the of last year...lets recap ( Read more... )

on friday i dont know what it was i guess it was because i was going to pick up my dress for my christmas party after work but about 12:30 i started getting upset i dont know what it was i couldnt tell you even if i wanted too...but i went into the office to calm down...i talked to charlette and cryed a bit then i thought i was fine about 15 ( Read more... )

some how i fucked up my msn so if you could please add me again cobweb18@shaw.ca i would love you forever and ever...

so i just got back my charger from the farm...one of pauls friends just dropped it off...that was the last of the things from his house that i needed...gone just like that no more needing to get a hold of any of them...no more needing to get a hold of his parents...now here i sit by myself...the only one who cant move on...Im scared im really ( Read more... )

I went to the Funeral on Monday. I felt very welcome by his family as i was the only one there who wasnt family...they made me feel like we were married...the same way he made me feel. i left Quebec on wedensday night and i think it was really hard for me...just cause now i know its over...hes not coming back ( Read more... )