But I still may pretend that you never existed. I think it may be easier that way...

counting on me
always hoping I'll be
there for all of your problems
In turn you're never there for me
you suck the life out of me
you hate everything you see
i can't take this anymore
i always stay when i should leave

...will I really do the things I want to do? Maybe I'll just have a crazy year and go out in a blaze of fury.

I'm actually ahead. There have been quite a few assignments. I feel quite accomplished. I don't want to forget this feeling. Hopefully it will motivate me to stray from my usual procrastination.

Okay, so I am actually moderately excited about my classes. All literature courses. A Shakespeare course, creative writing course, russian literature course, a medeival monsters literature course where we are pretty much just focusing on Beowulf, and a literature of the US post 1860. I will be busy, however. Very busy. I'll be reading a new ( Read more... )

When I am walking through my apartment complex, I close my eyes and imagine I am in New York City. I won't have that anytime soon, but one day...

And making my life better: love and all.

So, over the last few days I have figured out that the only way I can get myself to eat is by drinking. So, I am presented with a problem...I can either stay sober and be an anorexic or become an alcoholic for a little while. Yesterday I didn't eat anything all day until midnight when I walked to del Taco and fetched some food. And that is all I ( Read more... )

To see or dream that you are in a hot air balloon, suggests that it is time to overcome your depression. The dream may be a metaphor indicating that you are losing your ground or your foothold on some situation/problem. Alternatively, it represents the process of individuation and your quest to fulfill some spiritual needs. You feel the need to be ( Read more... )

Period.