i had a really strange dream last night that i was hanging out with tiffany and we were supposed to go hang out with bekah, but when we got there, she left a note saying she had to go pick up the boys. not long after, she called to tell us that she had been pulled over for throwing beer bottles and cans out the window and that sam, barry and mel (a ( Read more... )

so it began. this week i decided to stop drinking. i dont know how long i will keep this trend going, but it will at least be until i have figured out my problem. im pretty sure i know what my problem is, but i just dont exactly know how to fix it. all that i know is that i have been out of control for a long time. and it finally came to me that ( Read more... )

I never know what to write in this damn thing anymore.

after all that... i still left the heron/baker household without bekahs snowboard. at least i did't leave without a hang over!!! heheheheheehe we are such choadas.

Elton is absolutely right. Change is going to do me good. I just wish that change would happen right now. I still have another six months until my life can change the way I need it to. I feel icy. My whole body. Normal? I didn't think so.

SNOW SNOW SNOW SNOW SSSSSNNNNNNNNNOOOOOOOOWWWWWWWW ESS EN OH DOUBLE YOU today i am praying to the snow gods. i just want to ride ride ride.

i feel like i want to die. while im driving, i feel the urge to yank the wheel and drive my car into an embankment or off a bridge. these thoughts are becoming regularly occuring events. or maybe something random will fall out of the sky and kill me. i know deep in my heart i want to live and death is a cowards way out.. but this black is so thick ( Read more... )

its been a loooong time since ive posted on here. guess i'm due for an update eh? the past couple of weeks have been.. interesting ( Read more... )

stoopid stoopid friends of my roommates. thank you for being so loud i cannnot sleep. wank wank wank.

deception breeds anger ( Read more... )