Apart of me question the amount of time that we spend together.  What if it was actually us,  where I wasn't trapped between my current relationship and you and i. Where would we be? Would it be like this? Would I be to much for you? Would 4 hours of your time be more than could handle?

Where does your time go?
Between 8-1?
Tuesday Thursday and ( Read more... )

Its been forever since I've typed in here.

Life is still confuising as ever.

Im still with Chris.

Still working full time

got over a dollar raise..

Making good money..

Life is ok

Ambur

Today I live in another world... One that is filled with confuision, dishonesty, and total and complete conformity ( Read more... )

Hey,

It's been forever since I've wrote in here.. So many things have been happening.. Life is so weird.. You know?

I've been dating this guy Chris for about 5 months now.. Were doing pretty good.. Work sucks, I started working full time now.. then I have school as well.. My weeks are busy and by the end of the night, I'm so wore out. That's life ( Read more... )

OMG... It's been forever since I've wrote in here.
To all those who actually read this.. I wont be on for about another month (this starts in 2 weeks)..
I'm moving.. And im so excited about it...
2 more weeks and I'm outa hell!
So everyone keep in touch..!
e-mail me!
Reichard2006@hotmail.com

Later!
xx
Ambur

Sooo..
Um... Yeah.. Wow.. OMG.. thats awesome.. LIKE TOTALY!
Today..Is great.. I just started dating this new guy....
I met him from my cousins.. It's awesome.. His names Shonka...well.. Jon...
Anyway..Um just thought I'd show that I'm alive!!:P
Hehe..
Later all!

So today Sort of sucks. Last night I broke up with my boyfriend.. mainly because I never see him.. I felt like he was becoming more and more of a friend.. But now.. I feel bleh.. Cuz now i feel a rush of emotions.. and Idk what to think about them.. Heck, Im still debating if their real or not.. Damnit, isn't the breaker supposed to feel alot ( Read more... )

Sorry about all the suicidal things I've been writing lately.. then again.. since this is my journal I should be able to rant and rave as much as I want to..Now that the depression is gone-for now- I'm feeling pretty good..
annoyed with various things.. Confuised about a couple things..
and well..
U know how that goes..

DisorderRatingParanoid:ModerateSchizoid:Very HighSchizotypal:ModerateAntisocial:HighBorderline:Very HighHistrionic:ModerateNarcissistic:ModerateAvoidant:ModerateDependent:ModerateObsessive-Compulsive:High
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When you think about it...
What does anyone have to live for?! What do I have that's so special.. that is worth living for.. Im so unhappy with the life I lead.. And I know I can change it..
But It takes so much effort.. and my effort that I had.. Is officially drained...

I can't stand to think that I have to wake up everyday.. Untill one day I will ( Read more... )