good bye my unpeacfull world of hate and torcher
Good bye my unloved world of unworthness

people say suicide is for quitters
or losers

what about alcoholics

their just the same, or liers, or cheaters

were all the same

I find myself becoming more and more unhappy ( Read more... )

Today is a normal day..
SHITTY..
Other than that.. I'm living.. day by day... How fun!
YAY..
Amber

Omg,
Its not even close to exam time and im already stressing.. 
First HALF day of school I had an assignment to take notes on page 1-14 do 1-14 problems,
Then tuesday I worked and had to do My 1-18 vocab 15,16,17-20 more words-, math 1-53 (had to work that night as well)
then today I just got done from doing Chemistry for 3 frickin hours.. and now I ( Read more... )

Omg,
Its not even close to exam time and im already stressing.. 
First HALF day of school I had an assignment to take notes on page 1-14 do 1-14 problems,
Then tuesday I worked and had to do My 1-18 vocab 15,16,17-20 more words-, math 1-53 (had to work that night as well)
then today I just got done from doing Chemistry for 3 frickin hours.. and now I ( Read more... )

I had rescheduling.. I guess their going to sub. my A and P class for biology so now I don't have to take it. Lucky me.

Things here have been hectic.. I haven't had a day off since Monday, but I guess I sort of like working the whole 40 hour weeks.. It's money.. and that's basically all I think about while I do it.. MONEY..

Money for bills, for gas ( Read more... )

Every time I think about the existance.. Of me.. I feel so small...

Isn't it supposed to be human nature to wonder...
But isn't it also human nature to understand... Well.. Understand what we can.

Who am I..
Yeah, I kow the basics... My name, my age.. the things that in the end.. are useless to ME... The ME... that people don't see everyday...
Me...
Who ( Read more... )

Hmm, today I told my boss I have another job.. Im to chicken to quit.. I hate being mean.. Ugh, sometimes that's really bad..

Sometimes I'm just so frickin nice that in return..I get hurt. I remember when My family accepted me.. they thought I was an angle..Like I could do NOTHING wrong.. I had to live up to that for so many years.
Then when I ( Read more... )

Hey Journal,
Today is one of those days. Just where you sorta feel. You know.. Weird?
Got the report card back... My average is 93.519... I guess that's pretty good. One thing is.. is that I'm pissed at my class scheduale. I have to have biology in order to graduate high school. But since this is such a small school... I can't take all the classes i ( Read more... )