i clench the damn bear in my arms.
i have to hold on tighter these days, she's getting thinner.
(shes perfect)

Shes the only way i can remember your social security number when i need it.
and who would need your social security other than you except for your wife ...

a year ago i was a mess. to a grown up.
to me i felt like i was a mess in your eyes ( Read more... )

 You leave tomorrow. 
And i'm okay. 
i've done this too many times. 
i've actually gotten pretty good at becoming emotionless.
too much practice i guess. 
When you know its coming - its easier to tell yourself "i told you so" 
then it is to be one of those annoying self loathers 
that use heartache as an excuse for everything 
for a month or two. 
until ( Read more... )

It's ironic what makes me cry now.
I'm a strong person.
Stronger than i ever thought i could be.
And  the wall behind me.
is deploying to Iraq in 23 days.

When i said 'yes' . . .
i promised you i would follow you around the world
and never give up.
Now you're going to the only place where i can not follow you.
Where i can only tell you that i love ( Read more... )

i miss you bear, come home safe okay?

I love you.

169 more days ♥

Life - is not fair. 
It is not predictable. 
It does not make sense. 
Sometimes it makes us happy.
Sometimes it makes us excited. 
Sometimes it makes us happy.
It is always confusing.

Life - is neccessary. 
Everything that happens has its reason. 
It is heartbreak and puppy love. 
It is friendships and appreciation. 
It is need and independence.
It is a fine ( Read more... )

dear boy,

Come sweep me off my feet.

( it's always only wishful thinking )

Thank you Ellen for being the only one to defend me somewhat. Michelle .. wtf .. shes fifteen. JUST LIKE ME. why did he break up with me ? im young ... hes goin to college blah blah blah ... w/e. I hope he chokes ! (lmao)

He called today >.< hahaha protein shakes !

Okay wow i'm bored. School is out tomorrow xD hehehehe i'm escited ... lol ( Read more... )

( ... i'll melt in your mouth baby, not in your hand ... )