i deleted this now im back to dig up old stuff...in a band and we are doing well...based out of carrolton...where we will probably play our first show...hopefully in january....we want to be better than everyone else so its taking a while to smooth out the edges...hope to post some stuff on myspace pretty soon so keep a look out...ashley and i are ( Read more... )

i just have to hope its not another addiction that goes badly wrong...sweet to the taste with no baggage...finally a dream to believe in and no morning breath....why wont they send a letter dammit..let me know how fucked up my life was...no i dont forgive you i never could...you're a terrible liar...5 years gone to waste and one half good...how ( Read more... )

emotions seem so yesterday...where the fuck is my tool cd? must be lost in the fucking mothersfucking day brigade

finally after two years i finally sat down and fixed my computer..back to writing and recording stupid music

i cant help but to feel like im losing a grip on reality...maybe ive let my guard down for way too long...i've been on cloud 9 and forgot to pack my parachute...not saying things are bad or are going bad...but theres always a downfall..i just realized it...maybe its the medicine or sickness that made me realize and wake up..but i do hope for the ( Read more... )

we are built up to be a tragedy and i plan on sleeping it off

people fall apart ( Read more... )

this years starting off bad for the people around me...my uncle passed away..one of my best friends dads passed away...another friend had her leg crushed in a car accident...and another friend had a heart attack last night ( Read more... )

so up to the last day of last year it was a shitty shitty six months...truck in river, dui, back stabbing fucking friends...my uncle died actually spent new years looking as he laid in a casket motionless and so plastic...i would drink till i wanted to die...and die until i wanted a drink...hated life and its certainties...hated ppl and all of ( Read more... )

life, a drawing filled with eraser shavings
mesmerized by a feeling of uncertainty
morals, something you gain to forget
saturated by so many lies
emotions, like a zombie im bad with words
graduated into something more
happiness, a feeling so easily lost
cherished without doubt

ps today i finally closed my eyes just to open them for the last time