shawna (my friend) would ask for things from me because i had more $ than her and i would get them for her. she didn't so much as get me a birthday, christmas or anything present. even though we agreed to exchange gifts and i sent her stuff. she was repeatedly caught lying about stupid litttle things but it always made me wonder what else she ( Read more... )

I'm still going to write in this journal perodically, but i had a massive awful "break up" with shawna, my supposed best friend, and i don't want her to know much about me anymore ( Read more... )

this time it's not about ryan!  dinner with my dad (who left my mom and gave up custody when i was 2 years old cuz he got his mistess pregnant...yeah long story) has decided to come back into my life after about 8 years of us not even acknologing each other's presence on the planet ( Read more... )

I keep putting it off because it's SUCH a big job, but today i HAVE to clean up my room. especially since ryan's "gotten up" with aiden for the past 3 days. i appreciate the effort but in actuality what happens is that aiden gets up, wakes ryan up for about 5 minutes, then aiden (who figured out the door knob protectors) destroys the upstairs, ( Read more... )

i finished up just about everything on my to do list.  execpt grocery shopping, it was too cold for me to walk with my asthma, and it's supposed to be like 20 degrees warmer tomorrow so i' just gonna do it then.

NOTHING a did today was anything out of the ordinary.  nothing was more difficult than normal (including aiden), i even made a big dinner ( Read more... )

i'm putting my to do list here so i can keep track of it.  and take my mind of all the shit storm stuff with ryan.

• stay alive
• take meds
• drink coffee
• shower
• shave legs

ryan and i are seperating, at least for a while.

i'm fine, i broke up with him. he treats me and aiden horribly
he's traumatizing aiden and i'm lonely as all hell cuz he's always sleeping or studying or mad/mean or at school/work
i'm DONE, he has 2 weeks to move out if somethin dramatic doesn't change

he's constatnly screaming and yelling at aiden. ( Read more... )

snapper, the baby turtle, died about an hour ago. aiden is still HYSTERICAL. spent the day at gram's and she fed him cafinated ice tea all day and he's UBER wired. it's gonna be a LONG night. *sigh*

it was also aiden's first time feeding snapper so he thinks it's his fault snapper died.  goodness, it's always something!

'm probably not going to be around a computer much these next couple weeks, but i'll at least check in and let everyone know i'm alive so no one worries =)  ryan's got a HECTIC school/work schedual this semester, and it's KILLING me.  he's gone from 8:30am until 10pm 4 days a week for school (mon-thurs), has off friday but sleeps in until aiden ( Read more... )

I weighted in at 246lbs at the doctors office today after eating breakfast and lunch, so after tomorrow's weigh in i'm gonna guess that i'm at my first weight reward goal ( Read more... )