sorry i've been mia yet again lately, but i've spent the majority of this week in bed coughing my brains out, running a fever, and barely able to hold on to consciousness.  i'd say it's safe to say i caught aiden's cold..and man i feel even worse for the kid now  that i know what it really felt like.  i'm still coughing but not at much and no more ( Read more... )

front, black..it's actually a really really dark blue but it looks black outta sunlight:


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i'm currently on WAY less medication than "normal" over the last 4-5 years.  i feel my old self returning, my college, happy, loving life but living it on my terms self.  not mainstream heather.  today i dyed the top of my hair blue black and did the under neither/bottom fire engine red.  after this fade i'm gonna bleach it all out and come up with ( Read more... )

after taking 1, 1mg, dose of resperidol, i slept for over 24hours.  i woke up finally around 11:30pm tuesday night.  i'm supposed to take 1mg of this medication morning and night.  yeah..um..that's not gonna happen.  i have a 4year old and a life to live not sleep away.  back to the doc i go for yet another med change ( Read more... )

I'm completely walking away from my relationship with my in laws. my mother in law is pushy and constantly defends ryan no matter what he has done or doesn't do and i've had enough of that.  i feel like i constantly have to walk on eggshells with that family for fear of offending someone.

my sister in law, annalisa and her husband ray feel that no ( Read more... )

to start, i've gone completely off my meds for the bipolar for a few  days  now.  i've only been taking my massive (scripted) doses of klonopin and my knee pain meds (got hit by a car and need surgery). so here's the story:

i dunno if you saw  that i posted something negitive about ryan not getting up with aiden in the mornings ever on facebook, ( Read more... )

so i've been on a diet for a little over a month now.  yeay, great, wonderful, whatever...as part of that diet i havn't been eating chocolate or candy. well i got some for christmas ( Read more... )

i love my life lol.  ryan's in the one bathroom that we all share and aiden is POUNDING on the door SCREAMING "you're gonna make me poop my pants..and I'm NOT cleaning it up."

anti-anxiety meds have kicked in and i feel happy and normal.  that wasn't sarcasm, i really do love my crazy life.

all morning i've been having a massive panic episode.  i'm so glad aiden at school because i'm literally been unable to get off the couch, and i'm just laying there trying desperately to talk myself out of thinking i'm going to die or the world's gonna end or whatever horrible thing that i'm afraid of isn't going to happen.  i think it's mostly ( Read more... )

Who ever wins the fancy division of the mummer's parade gets serendaded in front of their meeting place (club) by all the string bands and fancys!  well, this year, the jokers won.  no i don't really care about the jokers themselves, but their CLUB is located on my corner!  so either this or next saturday, there will be a HUGE party, again, and ( Read more... )