When I was in middle school/high school, I had episodes of cutting myself. It was probably a "cry for help", an attention seeking behavior that was secretive. Some people saw it accidentally; my mom being one of them. She asked about it and fed her some BS, but that was all. I knew she wanted to act like she didn't see it ( Read more... )

When's it going to be my turn?

There was always a part of my subconscious that revealed the consequence of acting up, of being irrational, of being a girl. I feel like I am very close to that consequence. I always knew that, other than falling out of love with each other, I would be the reason why our relationship didn't work. Since we started dating, I didn't know if he could ( Read more... )

I am bothered that I have to reserve my affection towards my own partner. For lack of a better word, it "sucks". It "sucks" because it should just come natural and unfortunately, it doesn't anymore. Maybe because I fear the rejection, especially from him. Imagine holding back on showing how you feel about a person... imagine hesitating on kissing ( Read more... )

It's been a 2 months and 2 days since I last posted. It's been 2 months and 1 day that I've lived with Ate and Alan and I already have hit rock bottom ( Read more... )

After living in Sacramento for about a year and 3 months, I am moving back to LA. I owe it all to my dad for networking with his former co-worker, Carol, who gave me this opportunity to work in the Infectious Disease department at Sylmar-UCLA med center. That one phone call means so much to me. I can't relay the emotions that rushed over me... it ( Read more... )

Funny that your boyfriend will complement other girls over you.

Learn only to dependent on no one but yourself. Your expectations of other people won't be as high and disappointment would be at a minimum.

One of the most scariest things in life is change. And the biggest changes that you know will impact your life for better or for worse, may also be something to dive into. Along with change, you have to learn how to detach yourself from what you're comfortable with. Buddhism teaches that when you detach yourself from the physical, you suffer less. ( Read more... )

Would it be so wrong of me to ask a little more from you on occasion? Life gets so routine every now and then... it wouldn't hurt to break out of it right ( Read more... )